It ends tonight?
Tuesday, March 17, 2009 @ 1:59 AM
Bai fei le ta dang chu gei wo men de zhu fu.Ta xiang yao de, ta mei de dao,qu wo zai ni shou li, er ni qu bu neng hao hao zhen xi.Wei she me hui bian cheng zhe yang?Shi ni bian le xin ma?Wo na shi hai sha sha de xiang xin, ni shi ai wo de.Love is blind.Love makes me go out of my mind, I was stupid to believe that I could change everything.I knew the results, I knew it would turn out this way.But I still took it.I didn't consider the outcome enough.So this is fate? It's twirling us upside down.If he didn't ask you for help, would you even take a look at me? No.Feelings developed, in this way, so rushed and unexpectedly.Now...You rather spend time with your new friends than to even send a few more msgs to me.I don't understand why..Xi xin yan jiu perhaps? That's the only thing I can think of, if you say you love me.You have no idea, how badly I cried each time I'm disappointed by you.Like I said, in my entire life I've never contributed so much, onto and into one.Every day, every night; my eyes, my heart and my mind.You said I was your everything, in a song and messages were conveyed.You said I was the only one, and you might want to go on with me forever..All those songs, all those phases that you took out and showed me.Were they all just lies? Or just little tricks?Those songs...How sweet we were back then, how irrational and silly to have accepted you.I doubted you, was I right?Cause you never once even sent me back home to my house doorstep.It's your first one, I'm your first one and I could understand all these.I tried taking the initiatives, I tried to do this and that to mend our relationship back.But it doesn't seem to work...I know, you took my nonsense sometimes when I was doing lame things.But I did it all for you.I took in whatever you gave me, be it good or bad, I took it.Good, I enjoyed it and knew you loved me for that.Bad, I still willingly take it, try to understand that you still need time.Back when we had interest in KTV.Back when we were so indulged in chatting and knowing each other so much more.Back when we even had Erwin to help us out to confess to each other..Back when had our first time holding hands, we were scared.Back when I cried in front of you for the first time, I was worried this day would come.A lot of memories, numerous little details which I can never finish saying or even writing them down here.You made my life so full of you, but did I manage to do the same to you? I don't think so...I foolishly believed that your love for me was strong enough to pull through this issue and other contributing factors.I knew mine was able to, as long as you're there for me and I could just fall in deep for you.But I guess it's only one way now?The decision is set, hope I won't get soft-hearted again?Will you even make me stay?Do you even care or ache?It's 9 more days to our 4th anniversary, I doubt we can make it any longer.Am I right LG?