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Friday, October 16, 2009 @ 1:04 AM
Ahhh it's 12.32am, I can't sleep. I'm feeling alone and self-centered too.
Warning: don't read this if you don't feel like reading a ranting post.
Why alone?
I admit I'm a girl motivated by attention and encourages, that's how I do things.
So I'll die of depression if someone whom I care, said cruel things, treating me badly or hates/avoids me.
BAH, but that doesn't mean you all can do this to me now that you know my weakness uh!
Kill you!
So when I'm alone, I'll start to feel depressed, emo and stuff.
Which is one reason I don't like myself, 'cause I'm weak in that sense.
Why feeling self-centered?
Shall not say much about it here, for me to know and you all to find out.
People tends to judge when too much honesty is being input into what they voice out.
I know what I want, I know what I need and lack.
& I can understand why I feel this way.
I got enlightened by myself, my brain.
But my heart is still stuck at a certain stage whereby I feel insecure, unstable.
Well screw this shit, 'cause I know I'll be better in time, no matter how depressed I get halfway whenever I think back about those sad stuff.
I'll be finished with crying and move on, even though the crying process is damn painful.
But let's not assume I'm alright already la ok, 'cause I'm motivating myself now (; Lol.
Ok it's another long ranting post.
But it's for me to read and motivate myself anyway, HA!
My blog what.
p/s: Why meet great people in the future? 'Cause inside those great people will have people that I want, wanting me.
This is irrelevant; but how shall I spend my last weekend of holiday? And with who?
Monday's school's starting, the timetable sucks and so is school.
AH, FUCKING SAD, I'm serious.
Warning: don't read this if you don't feel like reading a ranting post.
Why alone?
- 'Cause people who usually talks to me online these few days, aren't online now.
- I'm not receiving any sms.
- I'm bored, nothing entertaining to do.
- I can't sleep, my mind is filled with things I wanna get rid of.
- It's late at night now.
I admit I'm a girl motivated by attention and encourages, that's how I do things.
So I'll die of depression if someone whom I care, said cruel things, treating me badly or hates/avoids me.
BAH, but that doesn't mean you all can do this to me now that you know my weakness uh!
Kill you!
So when I'm alone, I'll start to feel depressed, emo and stuff.
Which is one reason I don't like myself, 'cause I'm weak in that sense.
Why feeling self-centered?
- I wanna request lots of things from myself and from the people around me.
- I want to meet great people in the future.
- I want to... I want to... I want to... too.
Shall not say much about it here, for me to know and you all to find out.
People tends to judge when too much honesty is being input into what they voice out.
I know what I want, I know what I need and lack.
& I can understand why I feel this way.
I got enlightened by myself, my brain.
But my heart is still stuck at a certain stage whereby I feel insecure, unstable.
Well screw this shit, 'cause I know I'll be better in time, no matter how depressed I get halfway whenever I think back about those sad stuff.
I'll be finished with crying and move on, even though the crying process is damn painful.
But let's not assume I'm alright already la ok, 'cause I'm motivating myself now (; Lol.
Ok it's another long ranting post.
But it's for me to read and motivate myself anyway, HA!
My blog what.
p/s: Why meet great people in the future? 'Cause inside those great people will have people that I want, wanting me.
This is irrelevant; but how shall I spend my last weekend of holiday? And with who?
Monday's school's starting, the timetable sucks and so is school.
AH, FUCKING SAD, I'm serious.