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Our Christmas exchange.
Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 3:05 AM
I sure had fun with my friends. Thanks a lot, for everything (:
I'll try to upload the photos soon, since I've my baby back. Loves!
It's time for me to stop enjoying/slacking/sianning & start working. Again.
Will do a decent post with pictures when I can or am free.
Right now, I wanna try to get to sleep.
Insomnia's back haunting me again.
I'm sorry if I made you feel that I've been isolating myself.
GOMENASAI~
But sometimes I just need some peaceful time alone, doing what I feel like or want.
I guess my friends will understand right? (:
Because I wanna spend great fun joyful times whenever I have friends/family around.
I don't want my sadness to burden everyone and spoils the atmosphere.
It's rather depressing & irritating at times isn't it?
I'm trying my best to lead my life too.
The way I want it to be.
I have been thinking and slowly sorting out my thoughts.
I knew I could make it, because I'm born being the rational type. That's me isn't it?
So I've shifted my focus from trying to pin on the slightest hope to forgetting about it.
It's a good choice. It's the right choice. For me.
Although it pains me, even if it does I still have to let go.
Facts are right before my eyes, I got out of this game long ago. My turn's over.
Will feel sad, lonely, heartache. Ending up with tears pouring, chest hurting, nose blocking.
Whenever I recall.
But I can't do much.
Y'all will never know how hard each time I really cried to my heart's content.
I'm a fool.
