jinghui

alors & passe to inevitable alley

2010-02-03T21:31:00.001+08:00

Can you guess what I'm going to blog about when you see the title?

I'm moving!
Congratulations if you got it right (:
Anyway this will be my new place - Inevitable Alley

I'm sorry to say & trouble you all to re-link.
I know it's going to take some time to get used to this, I feel upset too.

alors & passe ` has been with me for at least about two years if I'm not wrong.
I feel reluctant to get into a new environment too.

But blogger's being a bitch ):
It says that I've reached my limit, I cannot upload any more images with that account.
Thus the birth of my new blog.

The truth is, I don't want to blog without pictures, it's stupid -.-
& I don't want to pay for spaces to upload pictures to blog, I'm cheap.
HAHA!
Would you, if you're in my place?

Anyway, I hope you all will continue to follow me on blogspot, enjoy (:
I'll still keep this blog open though, but I'll be active at Inevitable Alley.

That blog is still fresh, I'll try to make it loud that I've moved.
As I still need to make some changes here & there. In the mean while, just take note.

What a drag.

2010-02-03T00:55:00.001+08:00

A whole load of briefs were told by our lecturers, the weightage is stamping on us.
Right... No use ranting how much work they give us here.
'Cause you all wouldn't understand either, unless you're going through it.

Elaine told us particularly:
"Notice that I've been going on and on about the briefs & time line,
I keep saying CNY CNY but I never mentioned CNY BREAK."

Damn it, I see it coming already, even though I put myself in the sense of denial.
But yea, it ain't working at all ~.~|||

Anyway apart from these stressing issues, I have sleeping problems!
Oh shit man, seriously, my condition isn't getting any fragment portion better.
Sighhhhh... I need to relax myself a little, at the right time and in the right way.

&& this morning is so ROAR! I could have reached school without being late for IDC lesson.
But the slow poke bus, (or should I say bus driver) took so long to reach!!!
30+mins for damn sake! WHY THE HECK IS HE TAKING SO LONG!?

I have class test this morning, fortunately Yoong Sheng didn't start right on the dot.
NB, graded class test leh.
The love letter from my school is already enough la.
I was planning to reach early & this shit happen, wtf.

K forget about all these unhappy nonsense, enjoy music (:

OneRepublic - All The Right Moves

IDS DRAWINGS ARE DRIVING ME NUTS.
I HATE DRAWING THOSE STUFFS MY GOODNESS >:|
ROARRRRRRR!

Also, I cannot upload any images using my ScibeFire blogging application ):
& when I tried using blogger to upload, it says I've exceeded my quota range or something?
Means I can't upload photos anymore?!?! ))):
Anybody can help me with a solution?

The wheel spin round and round

2010-02-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

It was a super long time since the last time we cycled at ECP.
As usual, they don't like appearing in photos.
I was like the paparazzi, as always -.-
They never said yes to a group photo one. Unless it's somebody's birthday.

That's what makes me sad. Sighhh.
&& their jokes.... -.- K shall not elaborate much.
It's getting out of hand, more and more. Those bitches, zz.
Fine whatever, don't feel like bothering them, childish.

Anyway, photos are up on facebook.
Shenghui's new hairstyle is nice, he got them rebonded. Haha.
My thighs are a little 'suan', didn't cycle for too long already.

&&& MY PLANNER AH! I wait for so long already luh.
Hahaha.

K I'm sian. Tomorrow is Monday again. Ffffffffff.

Y'know, some people are just fucking buggers.
Please buzz off losers -.-

Who do you think you are?
Have some self-conscious please I beg you, know your place.
I feel insulted every time I feel irritated by this sort of losers, or as such.

NO I DON'T NEED YOUR COMMENT(S), BE IT POSITIVE OR NOT.
JUST STFU. NOT HAPPY GET LOST, THANKS.
According to this post, your "comforts" or "tags" doesn't help in anyways, nor appreciated.

You're warned, ok.

Reflections.

2010-01-31T01:02:00.001+08:00

Today was pretty laid back, went around Bugis, did some shopping.
I cannot quit the habit of spending, women are emotional buyers.
At least I ain't the worst case, just felt that there's a need to increase my range.

A 'cardigan', and a shirt from Cotten On. Ah, chio (Y)
And I'm almost all set for new year.
I need shoes though.

So anyway rot around and Erlin came to join Irene and I.
We even went to Marina.

I saw those rings and immediately got a little shocked when the images flashed back.
D:
My reaction was kind of big, lol pardon me.

Then I browsed through this book: Why Do Men Love Bitches.

Erlin and I were reading through it, damn true. Haha.
Suddenly I got all interesting in reading.

I think I really need to read that book man.
But it cost nearly $30, DAMN IT! >:/

I need...
Some excitement in life.
Ok I'm being a emo bitch again.

&& shut up please, this is my space where I can rant.
Not happy can diam diam and get lost.
Don't be such a retard.

I'm feeling this; vintage-studious.

2010-01-30T00:43:00.001+08:00

Aoow!

I'm tired like fuck :/
No time to lose, there's a lot more things to do, let's do it man!
Jia you.

RANDOM RANDOM RANDOM.
It's good for health (Y)

This year is not a very good year it says on my horoscope book.
'Cause my wealth luck ain't as good.
OMG, all of luck, it's wealth! TAT|||

I'm very particular about having mon-neh in my wallet or not luh.
No mon-neh, no smile, no talk.
But I think and I hope I can handle, I've been trying very hard to save.

I HAVEN'T GET MY PAYYYYYY -.-
Nb, it's near the end of Jan already.

I'm a living working machine.
Like any other machine, I don't rest much.
Except that I have better features & I'm talented.
Take that, whoever who wanna take it. Lol!

OK I NEED TO SLEEP GOODNIGHTBYEBYECIAOPEACE.

I've waited for so long.

2010-01-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm glad I stayed back late in school.
I'm glad my eyes were actually sharp enough.
I'm glad I could instantly recognise.
I'm glad that I reassured, it's really you.

My eyes couldn't see the surrounding, my eyes couldn't hear anything else.
My attentions were all focused, I heard my heart pounding.
I was shaking a lot back then.
But my legs felt the strong urge and I went chasing after your back view.

Even as you went away, I went after you.
You didn't see me, I was hoping you could turn around.
But at the same time, I felt blessed enough just watching your back.

Even as I board the bus, I was still shivering.
I wanted to shout out so much, "I saw him!"
I'm glad, that I saw you (:

I don't know, you brought me pain and happiness, altogether.

Random entertainment.

2010-01-26T00:46:00.001+08:00

I'm bored, I'm sian-ed, I'm tired.
Tsk.

I was telling myself lately, two is already a 'messed-up' for me.
I got to control myself before I get into another one D:
I found a target which I think is similar enough to cover up what I miss.
But still honestly speaking, yet not good enough for I want.

Should I smile more, and wait like I always schematically did?
Like a game.
Or I should just know my own limits and back off?
The temptations is just so strong, I'm surviving on sheer will.

Anyway, there's no time for me to think about this.
Just focus on, being nice (Y)

Oh yea, a funny video to share.
Don't be offended, it's just a show that I find it funny.

"RACIST? OR FUNNY? Gift Basket Prank" - Gabriel Iglesias ( uncensored )

Good night everyone.
Sweet dreams.

Life is beautiful, when you learn how to see the beauty within.

Let's share.

2010-01-24T22:13:00.002+08:00

Britney Spears/Lady Gaga - Circus/Just Dance (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover) on iTunes

Journey - Don't Stop Believin' (Boyce Avenue piano acoustic cover) on iTunes

Once again I have to credit Yongzu bro for asking me to view this.
His voice is amazing luh, isn't it?
(:

I remember this two images were taken during the Semester 1 period.
We were assigned to take photographs, so it was taken during our photography trip.

Cool luh.... ^^
Back when I still have my hair black in colour.

OH YA HUH, WHERE THE HECK DID THAT PIECE OF WHITE SHIRT GO!
Come to think of it, I haven't wear it for a damn long time!
The one in the second picture.

WA, got to find it. ZZZZ WHO TOOK MY SHIRT!?

It's good to blog.

2010-01-24T01:59:00.001+08:00

Be warned, it's a long post. Get ready.
Right, done, you're warned. Please carry on reading (:

Chun was asking photos of our clique from me, I was surprised.
He wanted all the old photos of our group, for a project.
So I suddenly thought to myself, being a stalker has its good points too.

If I don't carry the 'Stalker' position in our group,
no photos
no videos
no fun
no flashbacks
no epic moments
no reminiscence

right right right? They're all fun memories! :D
Of course there are sad ones, but the images reminds you a lot more.

And I feel fortunate having a blog because I recorded them down (:
Be it sweet or bitter, it's all here.

My old laoya cock desktop was far beyond curable, so I got it reformatted.
So I lost a lot of old photos ))):
There were lots of nice ones, really old and cool ones.

But I lost them all T^T But luckily I did some post which the purpose was to upload
epic pictures of our old times, those old posts saved a few images.
But not all, so still feels kind of sad.

So now I have the sudden urge of uploading the recent pictures I took.
Enjoy, let them feed your eyes. HAHA.
The two events happened on the same day by the way - 16th Jan.

Movie outing - The Spy Next Door

Erwin was wearing Joshua's winter gloves.
Zhiyong went to Japan for a school field trip (I suppose),
so he borrowed gloves and some winter thingys from Joshua.

So he took the bag and played with the things inside.

Guys!
They talk non-stop, they have endless topics to crap about.
Their main focus are about horny stuffs, so yea... That explains why they can't stop.
But I'd to admit that their craps are entertaining.

I hardly appear in photos when I'm the one taking them.
This was taken by Shenghui's sister. Lol.

Laselle Open House

Can you spot where's Hijjah, Irene and Grace?
Everybody's wearing black.

I love their doodling on the window, damn cool.
If only our Common Foundation would seem as exciting as theirs (Y)

I love their goodie bag!!! DAMN CHIO.
And the size is big enough, nice to carry around.

But the sad thing is that it's recycled materials, and the handle tore today -.-
I got depressed I swear.

Creativity (Y)

More creativity.

I didn't know Laselle has tuition grants leh, tsk.
The visit there sure gives me a little inspiration, to be more artistic.
Heh!

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Ok let's talk about today. What did I do?

I was supposed to be in school in the morning but I overslept!
Thanks Jaja for waking me up! :D
'Cause I was being such a bitch, I didn't sleep early >:|

So managed to finish one drawing in school, at least I finished one. LOL.
Supposedly I have to finish more and stay in school longer.
But we both just can't carry on any longer, we left school.

Wanling happened to be persuading me to accompany her so I meet up with her.
We went to a reallllllllly old primary school friend's 18th birthday BBQ.

Happy Birthday in advanced Lionel (:

Be honoured luh, we shared money and bought you a presents. Lol.
Wanling and I met up with Mingkiat and Kevin, another two of our oooold pri sch friends.
They bought alcohol for Lionel.

It was kind of awkward when we're there too, we don't know his friends.
But at least hanging together within the 4 of us was fun enough (:

Lionel - still as tall as ever, that impression I had of him never changes. Zz.
He also very buay hiao bye, he say himself is Luo Zhi Xiang LOL!
I've never seen him ever since we graduated from EPS.

I should say, my M.I.A methods succeded, ever since I left pri school.

Anyway, so this hanging-out turn out to be quite nice afterall.
'Cause we're with people whom we can talk about things.
Quite cool.

***ALRIGHT THIS LONG POST ENDS HERE***
GOOD NIGHT EVERYBODY, SLEEEEEP TIGHTTTT.
WHILE I HUG MY TONGTONG TIGHT TIGHT B)

I'm being too much of a soloist.

2010-01-23T02:47:00.000+08:00

Music, love it, who doesn't?
I miss singing very much ):

I always wished I could play a cool instruments.
But as a pessimestic person, I always believed that I won't be able to manage.
Especially reading notessssss @A@|||

AH, ok whatever. Naive, haha! :/
Very late now, shall turn in.
Will be a long day tomorrow.

It's a Saturday, how shall I spend it?
I need a planner, I need to plan, I plan to meet my needs.

I have a feeling that if I don't do things properly in 2010, I will have a harder time than 2009.
Sometimes instincts can tell, don't they?
Nothing else could be more accurate when you actually encounter it,
I don't want to wait till when I really do, and I regret.

It's heartbreaking when that happens.
See, I'm really pessimestic, I cannot afford to take another risky step.
):

I know it's being selfish of me, but there is a kind of life that I wanna lead and achieve.
I wanna enjoy at the end, but also trying not to be slave of life now to obtain that.
I'm trying, I'm really trying.

After tonight's sleep, tomorrow when I wake up, everything is going to be better!
It definitely will, for everyone of us.
Right? (:

p/s: enjoy the new playlist ♥
Good night, ciao!

I'm in deeeeeeep thoughts.

2010-01-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

Just as I was about to type, my hair smoothly came off from my hair clip.
The feeling was like, someone gently opened the mouth of my clip and let my hair loose.
Is it trying to tell me not to blog tonight?

But nevertheless, the results shows that, the trick isn't working.
*pin up hair again*
Lol.

It's finally Thursdayyyyyyyy *makes holy sound*
Lovely lovely Thursday (Y)

After today's "submission" for the 1:5 scale model, our studio turn out into a total mess.
Like what Brandon said: "This place is like a battlefield!"
Agreed!

& I'm being so random today, that I tripped over something at least 5 times!
I swear each time gave me a scare, made me felt retarded & lost.
Zz.

&& I just had the worst choke-on-water-cough ever, 10seconds ago.
HELL! ~.~|||
It was too late for me to run over to spit out the remaining water in my mouth,
I can't spit on the floor,
I can't swallow them immediately,
I'm choking and coughing like hell,
I covered my mouth real tight.

What's crazy was that, not a drip of water came out and I eventually swallowed the water.
Man, I'm amazed by myself.
Though it's kind of ridiculous, lol.

Yea, another pretty picture to share again (:
I love pretty sky.
Each time you see them, it's different but beautiful in many ways.

Alright I'm off to bed now.

I should get less emo,
smile more,
dare more,
do more.
Be, me!

Deep in thoughts

2010-01-20T01:16:00.000+08:00

Some random thoughts when I was riding on the bus, on my way home.
I want to take back my O level English paper -.-
As in, if I can luh that is. I want to have a look at my writing.

Ok that really was random.

So there's HTI lecture and tutorial tomorrow.
Elaine wants to see 12 chapters of our HTI journal! Madness :<
& here I am blogging, lol.
I've only completed 7, which includes the old ones.
5 more to go, sianzxzxzxz.

I realized I've been talking lesser, I'd prefer writing/blogging/typing.
Jinghui's on her way to become an total emo freak -.-|||
CHAM! Siaoooo liaoooo.

I need to enjoy life man.
Oh yea, fml instead. Look at what kind of garbage I've been typing.

Purple coloured stockings are nice too aren't they? Hmm...
I want blue ones too. If you know which shade I'm talking about.

I need a chio & good-function planner, seriously.
My schedule is getting packed, than before.

My shopping list is getting longer all of a sudden.
Nah, it's always long and it only gets longer.

Oh oh, my hair smells reallllly good (Y) Madly in love with my hair >B)

Oh oh oh, my dear chio but chui spectacles haven't fix yet.

&& oh, I should get going to continue with my HTI journal.
There's so much else to do other than this )): I'm hating James for this. Haha.

&& OH MY GAWD IT'S RAINING SWEETS & CANDY LOUDLY OUTSIDE! D:
(Nooo, I refuse to say it's raining mao and gou outside, because I'm cool like that)

Sweet 18th Part 1

2010-01-18T23:05:00.001+08:00

Pardon me, I've been so busy lately.
I've been drafting this post for quite a long time, though it's not properly done -.-

But I wanna blog about it.
It's my 18th anyway, heh.

First batch of surprisers and advanced presents from Aaron!
And so, he went to Japan and Taiwan. He came back with surprises for me.

He was saying he wanna meet me, so he came.
Gave me the flowers (:

HAHA first time I got roses, thankssss ^^
Pink ones some more. Lol!
But kind of silly luh, he was very funny when he tried to hide it from me lol.

Later, a hot pink leopard printz bag (Y)
LOL.
&& a pretty-looking flower hair clip.
The whole package was pink :D

But a sad thing was, these surprises came a lil too early..
I didn't have the time to fully enjoy the joy of receiving them,
not because it's too early but it's the peak period of submission of assignments.

So yea... I was very chui.
But I am really happy to receive these lovely ones (:
Thank you Aaron!

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As I was complaining that everyone has forgotten me...
I was even hoping that my old clique would remember my birthday.
But it's ok, I didn't pin too much hope in them either, 'cause I know it's impossible.

They'll never remember my birthday.
Most probably always me remembering theirs -.-
Nvm, it's not a big issue of my life either.
Back to topic - MY birthday!

First group of friends to surprise me with a cake.
A customised cake, with cute little doodling (not all are) & writings.
Thanks :D

It was on Friday evening I remember, 8th January.
Two days earlier than my actual birthday, but it was a total surprise!

I was left alone in the studio waiting for Irene & Grace, which I actually choose to.
Waiting for them to come back from Clementi (that's what they claim)
I was lazy to go with them so I stayed behind alone watching anime lol.

Right... After an hour, they're not back -.-
How far can Clementi get from SP?

SIGN: DOVER
"Doors are closing..."
*Door closes*
"Next station, Clementi."

~.~|||

Then I heard a knock a while later.
I looked back, without my spectacles on and had the intention to ignore.
But then I looked carefully again, it was a bunch of people with a cake lighted infront!

& there I was, shocked, omg.
Notice that, I was still watching my anime and they came right in with this.
LOL.

I just had to cut the lan jiao I tell you.
Where got people draw lan jiao on cake one!
Aaron! LOL.

Oh ya, forgot to say, he drew a dick on the cake -.-
Hijjah drew a rose :D
Irene wrote the Happy Birthday :D
Grace wrote my name :D

At first things were reallllllllly peaceful.
Until Grace had to spoil the peace and started this cream war.
LOL.

I was one sad sad victim I tell you. Look at me!

As for this, my doings. HA!

Anyway we all had fun luh, right? At least I did. Lol.

Ok this is the end of the part 1.
Part 2 will be up soon enough. Lol.

Although sadly this part 1 is supposed to contain videos of me,
biting out the candles from the cake.
They forced me to! OMG, I was being bullied luh. Haha.
But youtube is being a bitch, not letting me to upload my vids.

Too bad thennnnnnnn.
Perhaps next time (:

AH AH AH AH!!!!
TOMORROW'S IDC GOT 3D MAX TEST.
BRING MOUSE BRING MOUSE BRINGGGGGGG MOOOOOUSE!!!

D:
Kuwai ))):
Don't know what kind of building Yoong sheng will torture us with.
Kuwaiiiii ):

p/s: Kuwai means scary in jap. Did I spell it correctly? Lol.

Inspirations

2010-01-17T21:31:00.001+08:00

After eating dinner, I'm feeling lethagic now ):
Sian. Tomorrow is Monday again, haiya what the heck.
James has been pestering us that he wants to see the inside of our HDB model.

Zzzz...

It's good to be ahead of others, but not having the motivation to stay ahead is ):

I feel like doing HTI more than that bloody HDB flat -.-
There's so many things to do, especially after Elaine gave us another list.

I wish all these would be soon over. Then I'll get to enjoy at my next holiday.
Pretty please, please please please.........

New Year at next holiday, I'm not really looking forward to it though...
Friends going out to pay their relatives visits, they get red packets.
I don't get a lot 'cause I don't have many relatives here.

Most probably my friends will have their own plans, overseas etc.
Then I'll be rotting at home -.-
Well at least I have new clothes to wear though.
But for who to see sia?! When I'll be rotting at home. What the fuck.

Sian sian sian. Life's so sian.
Just when will it be my turn to start enjoying life? Or experience some excitements.

monotone saying it: -
"Heeeelloo? Emo girl here? Don't you notice at all?
I need some help here in life, so get the fuck out of good things to me now.
Thanks~ *roll eyes*"

*starts talking to herself*
"Only Tongtong understands me. So go ahead and enjoy your good-life fairytale"
*starts sobbing*

Lol.

I don't wanna...

2010-01-14T09:26:00.001+08:00

Get that out of me
Get them out of me
Get me out of me

Sigh, I've moved on.
Moved on from missing to thinking. From thinking to imagining. From imagining to disappointing.
Such a emo girl, what the heck.

I don't feel like attending school today.
I can feel that, I'm beginning to become what I have been before; selfishness.

A slight hint of sweetness. Just a slight one is what I really need now.
Not those from friends, not from family, not from those whom I don't care.
A slight turn of things, a little bit of changes.
I'm desperately in need of that. 'Cause I've been imagining things too much lately.
Or say, all the time? -.-

I've had enough.

2010-01-11T01:41:00.001+08:00

Why do I have to tolerate your nonsense?
DO I FUCKING OWE YOU A LIFE OR WHAT?

All these while, all the mess you left, all the troubles you made,
you left me nothing but nonsense and such.
Is this what you call friends? Which is also what you wanted; friendship.

I'M MUST BE OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND TO HOLD BACK.
I'm tired. Seriously. I get so very irritated by you.
Did I mention you're one bitch/jerk/shit/loser that sucks big time?

YOU CAN'T EVEN CONSIDER THE BASIC MANNERS IN LIFE.
Where's your fucking brain bitch?
I'm flabbergasted, by what you've become right now. Compared to the past.
Or should I say, you've always been like this?
Just that I've been a fool not knowing it! Urgh!

How can a person change so drastically? YES, YOU!
Drama loser.

I miss only the 'you' that is still containing in my precious memories.
I miss only the fun times we used to have.
I miss our common languages, phases, mindset, thoughts.
We could click damn well! But not anymore from what I see.

You're passe, forever passe. So long sucker.
I'll forgive you for being ignorant, but I will not forgive you for using that as an excuse for your behaviour.

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HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO JINGHUI! ♥♥♥

Aww pardon me. Pardon my ranting post up there.
I needed a space. I was on the verge of breaking down.
Many issues just came rushing so I just had to type it out.

I'm going to update everything about my birthday soon (:

There are adorable and lovely surprises, there were great!
There are also disappointments and a little sadness in between as well.
But I will not elaborate much on the negative side.
Who needs such nonsense? Right? (;

A big thanks to everybody, those who wished me blessings and gave me happiness!
Cake surprises, presents, efforts, love, joy, all that my friends, you all gave me;
THANK YOU (:

Be it those in facebook, texts, real-life. I love you all! Haha.

Please look forward to a series of photos that I will upload when I have the time to.
Right now I've got to continue chiong-ing like mad for my assignment.

Roar, FML -.-

AND I SPENT 52.75 BUCKS FOR COPIC MARKERS!
OH GAWD.
Am excited to make good use of them but also heartpain for my mummy.
She offered to pay all for me luh, she's kind of tight lately.
Thanks mummy! ((:

无时无刻，某些人还是有能量残留在我脑海里。
不断的重复那些回忆里的背景，
不断让我想起，使我忧郁。
我还有多少时和能量在再回味?

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Also not to forget to wish MASSIVE GOOD LUCK to all who're getting back your O's results!

Getting it back will decide your 'fate'.
Congratulations for those reached your goals, being able to make it through.
For those who unfortunately didn't, don't hold back your sadness if you feel like crying.
But move on after that. Life isn't just about O levels, don't get stuck there.

Friends, do let me know about your results k! Jia you! (:

Last 2minutes of being 17.

2010-01-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

TWO MORE MINUTES!
MY LAST TWO MINUTES OF BEING 17! )))):

God damn it. Why 18 so fast?! I'm always the first one -.-
Sian....

My facebook very clean also -.-
Urgh!!!!!

Sian la. I hope tomorrow will be better.

Pleasant Surprise.

2010-01-09T02:54:00.001+08:00

Hmm... I'm feeling sleepy right now. But I just wanna do a lil quick post.

How do I describe today? Hmm...
It's kind of tired during the day, sian too.

I was late for my GEMs class for 35mins. But it doesn't really matter anyway -.-
I stepped into the class at 1.35pm.
Just as I was trying to catch some balls, he asked questions.

Henry is my lecturer.

Henry: "Now let's move on to the second part of the lesson, shall we?"
Other students: "Huhhhh........ *sian face*"
Henry: "Yes there's a second part. Why you all don't want ah?"
Other students: *nothing to say, sian sian*
Henry: "Haha, then shall we continue this next week then?"
Other students: "YESSSS next week next week!"

So I was like...... Hmm... I didn't make the wrong choice coming to this GEMs.
HAHA. The lecturer is super lenient.

Henry: "Alright we shall continue next week. You all can leave now."
Other students: *already finished packing up, leaving one by one*
Me: *stunned, jaws dropped* "Wtf?"
Henry: "Eh wait, before you all leave please do something important for me."
All of us: *Paid attention O_O*
Henry: "Please remember to mark your attendance. You can leave now. See you all next week."

OMG.
It's 1.37pm.
I stepped in there for 2mins, just to witness this scene and I'm out of that place.
How cool is there? LOL.

Ok after all these shits, I met up with Irene.
Did some stuffs and I stayed back with them for a while.
She said she wanted to buy something from Clementi.

Grace and her went off...
After an hour, they're not back yet woorrrr. How far is Clementi from my school huh? Aiyo.
Hmmmm....

So.... They're back.
But they're not the only ones.

Hijjah and Aaron came too OMG OMG OMG.
They came in with a cake lolwtfomg.
I tio chua and shouted a little I swear. Lol!

I'll say more details about these in the next few post.
'Cause I decided to write a long one solely for my 18th (:

It's pretty late now, time for me to cuddle Tongtong in bed as well.
OHYATSUMI NASAI PEOPLE (:

Lately been getting lots of people with smiley-face as their name tagging me don't I?

Fly away, graciously, my money.

2010-01-08T18:33:00.001+08:00

I'M NOT WORKING THIS SATURDAY AND SUNDAY ALREADY.
(9th & 10th)

Since I have assignments to rush.
Since I don't have enough time.
Since it's my 18th birthday on the 10th.
Since I CAN BEAR TO PART WITH MY ITOUCH PAINFULLY ))):
Since I can bear to part with my 100bucks painfully.

BUT, it's ok...
It may take a longer time for me to get my iTouch.
$299 for 16GB.
It's ok, I'll get my hands on you soon baby.
I promise I'll save up my money.

):

But it's so hard to save for a design student. Especially for a person like me.

SO, DATE ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY FRIENDS.
LOOOOL.

I want lots of presents!!!
I'm finally 18! I hope you all're not forgetting about me ):
You all still care about this lovely girl right?
Sigh.

Garden Of Love

2010-01-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

I was watching Grace and Irene playing jubeat in arcade.
Google jubeat if you don't know what I'm referring to.

Took this from the net.

It's my first time kept thinking about something that is related to the arcade -.-
Surprising enough for me, I'm dead serious.

In case you all don't know, I'm never a person who's ever interested in games.
But silly game like RC in Facebook was an exceptional case, lol.
'Cause it's a never-lose sort, & I never touched it since I-forgot-when. So yea...

YA LA, I hate losing la. Tsk.
So I don't like playing games. I avoid them.
Anyway they don't catch my attention. Lol.

I tried out a song with Irene, lol.
I felt retarded 'cause I accidentally pressed the wrong button twice.
Due to natural instinct/reaction -.-

But it was cool, I like the lightings :D
Songs were kind of nice too, lol. Except some were... a little weird.

Neh neh, I couldn't stop thinking about this song after playing that machine.

MAKAI - Garden of Love feat. 青山テルマ (Aoyama Thelma)

Ok la, it doesn't sound very wow-ish here I'd to admit.
But the beats were totally awesome when you play the machine, I swear.
(Y)

Neeeeeeway, it's a random update.
Just wanna write something, for some reason, of I-don't-know-what too.

Also, just in case people who drops by often finds it sick
to keep seeing the same old post right at the top.

我学会隐藏
我学会掩饰
正在学忘记
正在学放弃
要学不在乎
要学不要哭

The one who falls in love is the loser.

achy passe

2010-01-06T01:32:00.001+08:00

That's right baby, I'm goin' crazy.

Pink sensation.

2010-01-05T00:14:00.001+08:00

Guess who gave me this?
It's my first time receiving roses! :D
It's Pink!

Anyway will update more details. I'm like still keep the original form of it.
Though it's been with me for nearly 3 days, lol.

Hectic day & night for me! Roar :/
I didn't sleep last night, again, to complete work.
Hiong ah (Y)

Oh yea there's some kind of little issue here. (Imma start bitching now)
I'm not trying to be rude or pinpoint anyone by saying this. So long as you get what I mean.

MSN - Status!
Red colour, busy = BUSY.
Green colour, available = FREE.
Yellow colour, away = Away From Keyboard.
White colour, offline = need not me to elaborate.

Sometimes it just kind of pisses people off, especially at the wrong time.
I don't mind if people really have questions or something urgent to talk about.

But please, if the person's status is busy,
or if he/she already pm-ed that she will not entertain no one or BLOODY BUSY,
kindly have some courtesy to NOT disturb him/her.

You can say that, he/she can jolly well fuck off or appear offline what!
But the thing is sometimes you just had to stay 'online' to transfer files.

Imagine, you're having a very tight time constrain;
you need 2 days to finish this work but you only have 'till tmr morning *OMGWTFSCREAMS*
And so, you're rushing madly for it.

You want to appear offline or not even sign into MSN to avoid yourself being distracted.
But you have no choice because you need to send some important files over to your classmate or whoever it may concern.

So to avoid friends coming over to chat with you blablabla, you put RED status.
*turns into RED colour*

But unfortunately, there are still some senseless morons coming to disturb you with nonsensical questions.
Or do you even consider those remarks as questions at all? -.-

Like -

"HEY, you free now? You busy?"

"Hi. You busy? Can talk not? Very sian leh."

"What's uppppppp, what you busying with?"

"WAAAA so late haven't sleep?"

LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?
ASKING QUESTIONS THAT AREN'T QUESTIONS AT ALL.
It's like you're sitting in the foodcourt eating, you have people asking you: "Ehhh, eating ah?"
What the fuck? -.-

So you forgive these senseless morons, you squeezed your little bit of endurance out;
and you give short simple replies.

( Could be because that you didn't self-declare that you're fucking busy, so gave them chances to attack you.
Or could be that the person has some serious questions they wanna ask you,
but they feel bad about asking straight away, so they say those as 'openings'. )

Like -

"Heyyyyy, sorry I'm really busy right now. I'll talk to you next time. Rushing for assignments."

"Sorry, talk next time k? Busy with work, byeee!"

"Yea, can't sleep yet. I have lots of work, chat next time. Ciao!"

NEXT,
PM yourself saying:
"BUSYYYYYYYY DON'T TALK TO ME, I'M RUSHING FOR WORK."

Or you could be more polite:
"Kindly don't bother me, I'm rushing for assignments. NO TIME TO WASTE! Thanks."

Or you're the extreme-moody-or-drama type:
"I'M BUSY. STOP FUCKING TALK TO ME MORONS. THANKS UH, IF YOU DO, I'LL FLARE AT YOU."

*change your personal message to of your choice*

But there are upgraded idiots who simply doesn't bother of whatever your write there.
They'll continue to disturb you and ask you questions and whatsnot -.-

They're the people whom you can vent your anger on when you're feeling pek chek over your assignments.
& upgraded idiots out there, LET THEM SCOLD YOU, BECAUSE YOU ONLY HAVE YOURSELF TO BLAME.

HAHAHAHAHA!

(Y)

It's drawing nearer & nearer.

2010-01-03T01:25:00.001+08:00

ONE LAST DAY!

))):

Thanks Aaron for the advanced surprises ((: It really made my day.
But I didn't have enough time to have all the fun to myself or enjoy more of the surprises.
I will when I'm free again.

I'm chiongingggggggggggggggggggggggggg.
I'm aching. Inside out.

Whispers hello, I miss you quite terribly.

2010-01-02T03:18:00.000+08:00

It's 3.05 am.
I can't sleep, I'm not doing my work either, and I guess I know why.
How stupid of me, I know where the problem lies but I can't make myself to resolve it.

I was being selective, and read some old post on my blog.
How sweet those days were, how unexpectedly of me to become like that, how much I gave in.

It's already been a year.
I still clearly recall what was I doing a year before this year's events.

我觉得好无奈，哭得心好痛。
怕寂寞，怕伤痛，怕拥有，怕失去。
好好的一个人，怎会变成这样？

This kind of symptoms would only make me wonder, how much longer am I going to take?
My tissue supply is depleting rapidly.

Last of 2009, First of 2010; Years of Friendship!

2010-01-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ♥

It's my first post of 2010, coolness!
It feels weird to write the date in a different year, again. Tsk.
Although like I said, I'm not quite ready for the new year but life still have to go on.

So, I was doing shits in school with Jaja-desu.
Felt really shit & I wanna go out to take some breath. I asked Erlin about countdown.

After some discussions, all of us meet at Bugis, 9pm.

Had Starbucks :D
& we walked our way through. To where? Singapore Flyer.

Their backview.
I'm a stalker.

Cheers! ((:

Two chio bu. LOL *uhem uhem*

The fireworks was a total blast, awesome view!
Fully 10minutes, to welcome 2010.
I don't have any photos of the fireworks though, 'cause I took video instead.

But it kind of screwed up -.-
So I'll just have to try to stick the videos together already.

Anyway it was a fun night and countdown.
I wish we could do this every year? I don't want our group apart.
I feel a hint of sadness.

Hmmm... But I hope everyone's new resolution will be fulfilled.
Wishes will be granted as well.

Photos are up on Facebook too.
Ciao ((:

Back in school for hmwork.

2009-12-31T03:39:00.000+08:00

So shit happens and I woke up late today. Very late.
I freaked out, text-ed Hijjah and we agreed to meet in school instead.
Rushed all the way, like mad, as usual.

New year eve!
It's 3am right now, I'm cutting the bloody-thick 3mm greycard. FML -.-
Eh no wait, I don't have life to f.
'Cause I'm doing this shit in the middle of the new year's eve. Yes, I'm no-life like that.

T.T

But nevertheless... ... ...
Let me make a wish for everyone - Peaceful & sweet night this eve, so as to be prepared to welcome the new year!

I'm not quite ready for new year though, mentality's not there yet.
The awkward feeling is pretty getting on my nerves, heart is pumping a little speedy too.

However, of course I wish that 2010 would be a great year ahead for me.
I want to have more happier days, sweeter nights, fun times & awesome experiences.
I want to be treated even better, I'm greedy. Wish what, lol.
So that's why I'm going to try to be a better person as well (Y)

Er........ 3.40........
I cannot take it already, I think I'll be off to bed with Tongtong soon ♥

Devoted or silly?

2009-12-30T01:16:00.001+08:00

It's 1am. I should try to sleep.
Then I'll wake up super early tomorrow and continue from where I stopped.

My fingers very pain, cannot cut ):
Bruised again.

JYJY JINGHUI!
You can do it, although you know it's gonna drive you crazy.
New year's coming, new resolution is to work harder!

Time passed very fast! URGH!
& I'm here blogging -.- LOL.
But people likes reading, isn't it? Hahaha. Say you do, TAG ME!

Just be more pro-active and tag me la aiyo.
All a bunch of stalkers, act yi ge anonymous and mysterious.
Don't think I don't know who you are. Humph!

2 more weeks, I'm turning 18 :/
Anybody wants to volunteer to give me surprises?
*sigh*

The only reply you get from her is "I'm sorry".
You barely could handle the blow of her hurtful words but still picking up the pieces and continue trying.

You've changed a lot. So much that you scared yourself, me too.
I'm impressed with your undying spirit of snatching chances, but it gets pointless too.
You know it's going to happen but you just wanna do it.

But don't throw away your pride for someone who's worthless of your attention.
Don't waste your time and efforts for an uncaring girl.
Take back your feelings, sort them out and love yourself.

Silly boy.

Why weren't you like this when we were together? Lol.
Cheer up silly boy.

Shopping & random shots.

2009-12-29T01:20:00.000+08:00

URGH! Feel damn sian now.
Have been rushing to Hijjah's house lately to do the stupid HDB model.

She stay at Admiralty. While I'm at Bedok Reservoir Road -.-
Wtf luh. But it's a choice within no-choices. Sigh.

I hope can quickly cut the bloody greycards out, finish the "frame" and get things done.

I even bought my papers. & I'll have to brainstorm how am I going to
save the major-failed idea from the previous model and input it into this new one.
FUCK _|_ ):

I feel god damn miserable. Still have HTI, Kung Fu Manual, Dossier.
In addition other stuffs that are not completed T.T

FML! Literally.

ANYWAY! SINCE I'VE ALREADY UPLOADED THE PHOTOS I MIGHT AS WELL JUST POST IT ALREADY.
SOME RANDOM SHITS. LALALA.

Grab them if you want friends. Lol.

Don't grab my flowers though. MINE!

Especially my roses.

Talk about roses...
I've yet to receive any roses in my bloody 17 years of life.
DAMN!

Not even a stalk ): How more sad can I get further?
When I actually self-declared that I love roses, but nobody bothers.
*roll eyes*

Another random shit.
I have newly coloured hair because I worked two days as a promoter.
For Liese Bubble Hair Colour.

Ah, too bad my phone just couldn't manage to capture the original colour of my hair now.
It's chio, heh.

NOW MY SHOULDER HURTS.
& I CAN'T BLOODY SLEEP, AGAIN.
Tmr will have to wake up early, chiong work at jaja's place.

Oh gawd, fml again.

Lalala

2009-12-28T22:32:00.001+08:00

50 Random Questions

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?

Bugis

2. Who are you in love with?

Myself

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?

No. Must be nasty.

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

PLENTY! :D

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?

3 hours ago.

6. Are you wearing socks right now?

No.

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?

No -.-

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?

I don't drive.

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?

Yea - Slow Warriors. Lol.

10. Are you hot?

No? Am I?

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Plain water.

12. What are you wearing right now?

Clothes, duh.

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?

I don't even own a car ):

14. Last food that you ate?

Lakerol sweet - Grape flavour (:

15. Where were you last week at this time?

Hmmm... Hmmm... Hmmm...

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

Hehe :D

17. When is the last time you ran?

Just now. To avoid the rain.

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?

*jaws drop & sian face* I can't remember.

19. What is your favorite animal?

A smart & loyal dog.

20. Your dream vacation?

Lots of shopping shopping, relaxing relaxing & fun experiences with loved ones.

21. Last person's house you were in?

Hijjah. For project.

22. Worst injury you've ever had?

Sprained wrist.

23. Have you been in love?

Yes.

24. Do you miss anyone right now?

All the time.

25. Last play you saw?

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

LOL?! Secrets are not meant to be revealed.

27. What are your plans for tonight?

What do you think?

28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?

I can't remember.

29. Next trip you are going to take?

No plans yet.

30. Ever go to camp?

Duh.

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?

Huh?

32. What do you want to know about the future?

How will my life be? Rich? Blessed?

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

No.

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?

Huh?

35. Where is your best friend?

Everywhere.

36. How is your best friend?

She's good I suppose.

37. Do you have a tan?

HUH?

38. What are you listening to right now?

I Hate You - Sick Puppies

39. Do you collect anything?

Hmmm... Starting to.

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?

First person I think of is Jasmine Ngo. LOL!

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?

Never.

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?

Yea.

43. What does your last text message say?

There are changes to the schedule so you can still work and it's now 9 and 10 jan instead. No more fridays.

44. Do you like hot sauce?

Not really.

45. Last time you took a shower?

An hour ago.

46. Do you need to do laundry?

A little.

47. What is your heritage?

Huh? Singaporean?

48. Are you someone's best friend?

I suppose.

49. Are you rich?

NOOOOOO -.- Damn!

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?

Uploading photos on my blog.

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XMAS'09

2009-12-28T03:10:00.001+08:00

YESSSSS!!!
After using two nights of my time, I finished uploading all the photos of Christmas Celebration.
Only.
LOL!

But I sure does have a tons of photos to upload so I'm trying my best too (:

Alright, shall start now.
Irene, Grace, Hijjah and I we all agreed to celebrate Xmas with exchange of gifts too.
Meet up @ Cityhall but Hijjah was late due to her reasons.

So the rest of us had lunch at Marina's Pizza Hut first.

Irene was about to return my baby to me.
Then she surprise me with THIS! :D
My baby in a new laptop pouch, awww. My first gift.

Coolness 'cause the laptop pouch can flip one. Lol.
PINK AND BLACK!
&& she sewed the buttons on herself.

My traditional pasta.

Then I gave out the bracelet I bought for everyone.
Hehe.

Finally after lunching, we walked around and settled down @ Macs for Milkshakes! (Y)
Grace - Vanilla
Irene - Chocolate
Me - Strawberry

Hijjah arrives and gave us cards.

Damn cute la! Haha :D

Grace gave us our little gifts as well.
Jellybeans with card too (:

So all of us have the bracelet now (Y)

We agreed to walk around again and heading towards Esplanade.
BUT! Passed by RUBI SHOES, noticed the crowd and the price.

I CANNOT HOLD BACK AND I BOUGHT A PAIR OF GREY COLOUR FLATS.
How can you resist? When you see the price tag says only 10 dollars?!
Hehe great deal huh, usual price is about 30 dollars for two pairs.
And I got a pair for 10, HA!

For Hijjah; blue.

For Irene; green.

For me; pink.

For Grace; yellow.

Gathering up and found a dry spot to sit down at the roof of Esplanade.
Grace and Hijjah exchanging their gifts.

And it's Irene and my turn.

Please don't misunderstand me.
It's Irene's doing, LOL.
She printed a t-shirt for everyone and right behind has this 'name' on it.

Irene - hentai rinrin
Hijjah - hentai jaja
Grace - hentai baba
Me - hentai huihui

-.-

It was an inside joke la, but doesn't mean we're hentai. LOL.

A necklace from Irene too.
Heart shaped :D

HENTAI MEMBERS LOL!

Ok after the exciting moments of gift exchange, we headed Bugis area / Iluma.

This only cost $7! Hahahaha (Y)

Later we settled down at NLB's area, enjoying the windy atmosphere.

Of course, not without some drinks (:

Cheers!
For Christmas, our friendship, the coming new year, health and wealth!

Lastly, after a longgggggg day, I bought back Donuts to share with my family.
Awww so sweet of me LOL.

That concludes the celebration post *wriggle brows*
Feel free to grab the photos peeps, sorry to keep y'all waiting.

Stay tuned for more. Loves!
Ciao!

It's frigging 3am now! Oh gawd.

Our Christmas exchange.

2009-12-26T03:05:00.001+08:00

I sure had fun with my friends. Thanks a lot, for everything (:
I'll try to upload the photos soon, since I've my baby back. Loves!
It's time for me to stop enjoying/slacking/sianning & start working. Again.

Will do a decent post with pictures when I can or am free.
Right now, I wanna try to get to sleep.
Insomnia's back haunting me again.

I'm sorry if I made you feel that I've been isolating myself.
GOMENASAI~
But sometimes I just need some peaceful time alone, doing what I feel like or want.
I guess my friends will understand right? (:

Because I wanna spend great fun joyful times whenever I have friends/family around.
I don't want my sadness to burden everyone and spoils the atmosphere.
It's rather depressing & irritating at times isn't it?

I'm trying my best to lead my life too.
The way I want it to be.

I have been thinking and slowly sorting out my thoughts.
I knew I could make it, because I'm born being the rational type. That's me isn't it?

So I've shifted my focus from trying to pin on the slightest hope to forgetting about it.

It's a good choice. It's the right choice. For me.
Although it pains me, even if it does I still have to let go.
Facts are right before my eyes, I got out of this game long ago. My turn's over.

Will feel sad, lonely, heartache. Ending up with tears pouring, chest hurting, nose blocking.
Whenever I recall.
But I can't do much.

Y'all will never know how hard each time I really cried to my heart's content.
I'm a fool.

So now it's Christmas.

2009-12-25T01:48:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Joy, fortune, health, wealth, happiness, blessings, everything nice; may them stay with you.
I wouldn't wish them for you all the time, 'cause you wouldn't know the differences between bitterness and them, and therefore can't really feel it.
So I'd say, most of the time (:
Cheers! Xoxo.

I wonder if Santa Claus ever existed? Have you found your Santa?

Anyway my baby will be back real soon.
I promise I'll update with lots of photos and stories to tell.
So stay tuned, ciao!

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart.
I still remember, chocolates was my gift to you.

After such a long time.

2009-12-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

Watched Storm Warriors with the old clique just now @ Marina.
Nine of us altogether (: Everyone's around except Zhongwei.
Everyone together again...

The movie was wth, it didn't meet the expectation -.-
Filled with slow motions and felt crappy about the ending.
I have a feeling that Storm Warriors ||| might come out.

I wanna watch Avatar, Bodyguards & Assassins, Sherlock Homes & lots more!
Roar! Tsk ))):

Ok I don't know what more to blog about.
'Cause I don't really have the mood for blogging without my baby. Aww.
Now I know how attached I am to him. My baby I'm referring to.

I'm always slow when comes to emotions, which is bad & hard for me to heal fast.
But I'm relieved, right now.
Partly... Because of I know what.
Thank goodness. I do love myself don't I?
But I miss the feeling of being in love too.

I'm starting to...

2009-12-21T01:24:00.000+08:00

Sorry, I won't be blogging with pictures lately unless I'm really enthu about it?
Or for some other reasons or so.
Reason being, my baby isn't with me since Friday afternoon.

Lent my precious baby to Irene, in order for her able to complete her work.
I trust you sister, I trust you *wriggle brows*

Anything happens or you don't wanna return it to me in case you fell in love with it, I'm so gonna haunt you down. Not even a hint of scratch, I don't allow.
Roar! Fear me! Muahahaha.

Tomorrow will be an eventful day.
So is Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, as well as Friday.
Jinghui is very packed with appointments and to-do list (Y)
This is the first time ever, I'm busy during Christmas season!

New record in my history.
Previous years of my life were horribly miserable I tell you.
My fierce flame of passion has been trapped, unnoticed, for too long. It's time now.

I won't be busy for nothing y'know.
My life will change, for the better. I'm pretty sure. You'll see.

HAHA.

Anyway, I like my newly coloured hair, LOL.
Boo to lousy hair. It's softer this time (:

Friends, please look forward to seeing my hair when you all meet me.
Don't worry it's not alarming, just refreshing and new (;

50-50

2009-12-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...
I really want things to be like what I'm thinking about. But it seems hard.
Everybody doesn't want their ego getting hurt nor the walls they built being scratched.

But I miss being with everyone, every single one's presence.
I miss it so much; like as if it's no longer a truth. It's fantasy.

Ok sounds exaggerating, lol whatever let me feel emo once in a while la huh.
Haha. Strong girl needs breaks too.

But I don't know why, my mood isn't improving.
Not as bad as going to cry though?
It's stuck in between. So it isn't any better anyway -.-

Maybe I'm pondering too much. Let's just not pin on too much hope.
Higher hopes, crushes more badly when being let down.
I'm don't wanna be damaged again.

I dyed my hair again, looks much better than the previous one.
The quality's better too (Y) Woolala.

I need to get my things done quickly.
As always, I plan, I take and do, and get everything right in place.
It never fails. I won't let it.

I wanna study overseas after poly.
Is it possible?
Give me a peace of mind, pretty please.

This love

2009-12-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

The Veronicas - "This Love" Official Music Video

You took my hand
You told me it would be ok
I trusted you to hold my heart
Now fate is pulling me away, from you
Even if I leave you now
And it breaks my heart
Even if I'm not around
I won't give in
I can't give up
On this love

Many things to do and need to be done.
AH! It'll be an 'Eventful Holiday'.
Wonder if should I be happy about it or be careful about it; either way I'm on both.

Jia you jia you over this weekend!
I hope things goes well, according to my plan.

Christmas is coming. I'd better prepare well.
There's so many things I wanna buy.

Some people just fucking can't talk nicely. What idiots.
I hardly can't communicate well with other people unless I don't want to.
Or could be that person is being unreasonable.
You just pisses me off sometimes, what's wrong with you?
No I'm staying away from you, so refrain from getting close too.
I'm glad it's like that.
I'm glad I didn't have to go through more trouble.

My fever is still on and off lately. Fuck.

I don't want to run away.
I hope you'd come, alone.
I wanna talk to you, there're so many things I wanna ask you.
I've been wishing to meet you somewhere.
I've been wanting for a change for us.

I will try harder this time.

2009-12-16T23:16:00.001+08:00

Last night, or rather this morning was really BOOHOO!
I reckon I fell asleep nearly 4.30am. What the fuck -.-
And I woke up with super shagged look zzz.

Tomorrow there's a presentation, for a reason, lol.
Jia you jia you!
I'm looking forward for the hair dye thingy, but at the same time hoping they won't screw my hair.
Or I'll screw them (Y)

I NEED SOME SERIOUS RESTING.

Oh yea, share a super cute video with everyone. Credits to Yongzu for sharing with me too.

WATCH IT!

Ukulele Boy Is a Hit on the Web..

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
Retarded but talented cute boy.

Ok I wanna watch anime and do powerpoint to boost myself.
LOL. CIAO ((:

Insomnia

2009-12-16T02:22:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh ))):
Was talking to Irene on the phone just now.
I convinced her to tell me stories, to coax to me fall asleep.

She told me THREE STORIES! She made them up herself.
Not bad leh her stories, lol.
But I was such a bitch, I just couldn't fall asleep )):

Wtf luh, spoiler right. Spoilt her efforts. Sigh.
Not that her stories are not nice, the problems just lies with me.
Siannnnzxzxzx.

I'm guessing that my biological clock has been altered, way too badly.
Blame it on not being able to sleep at proper times during submission periods.

EVEN MY SALTWATER ROOM LULLABY DIDN'T WORK ON ME T.T

Any other suggestions people?
Please share with me; 'cause I'm one difficult case to handle.
& I mean really difficult.

Let me depict a depressing moment.

2009-12-15T02:05:00.001+08:00

I'm sick today. Or should I say I consider myself sick, lol.
I opened my eyes, time-checked and it was near noon.
My whole body was in pain; I couldn't bear to move much.

Urgh, the most frustrating part - I can't cough anything out from my dry throat.
Deep down I know there's something, but I cough no shit! -.-
Anyway, I've been like that since Friday already, tskkkkk.

I gathered up my strength, had my brunch, and stone in front of my baby.
Moments later, someone came into my room and it was Irene!
Pleasant surprise huh, no more next time, without informing me k! Haha.

Yay, now as I'm typing I'm coughing. OMGzxzxzx :////

Going to bed now after this. Good night, ciao (:
Oh my, it's 2am.
I'm leaving my baby on auto-shutdown with my lovely lullaby on; The Saltwater Room ♥

PHOTOGRAPHS + UPDATES!

2009-12-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

PHOTOS PHOTOS PHOTOS :DDDDDD
Yes man it's been quite enjoyable these few days.
I do feel quite guilty for enjoying this much and not touching my work LOL.

BUT HAIYA, I'VE BEEN WORKING LIKE A BITCH FOR SO LONG LUH )))):
right right? HAHA.

Movie & dinner @ Ajisen with Shenghui.

Hanging out with Irene.
Grace couldn't make it in the end, sadly.
But we'll all hang out together again soon enough, hehe!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope you're really happy, may your wishes come true (:

Ok, I'm dang tired. HAHA.
I'm very impressed with myself lol.
I love the pictures, woohoo (Y)

GOOD NIGHT WORLD, JINGHUI LOVE Y'ALL.
Ciao!

Sweet and Low

2009-12-12T13:00:00.001+08:00

Sweet and Low - Augustana

Hold me down, sweet and low, little girl.
Hold me down, sweet and low, I will carry you home.

Promises after promises.

2009-12-10T23:55:00.001+08:00

O-M-G, I've finally caught the movie.
Heh (:

The story board, the situations and feelings really somehow reminds me of certain things.
I'd do the same if I were her...
Though it does feels ugly to admit that, or know that I'd do that.
But I understand how she feels.

Watched it with Shenghui. & had dinner later on.
Thanks for the company.
Will post more photos tomorrow, I'm tired.

Exams are over for most the people in poly now.
Congrats and enjoy your holiday (:

Tsk. I've got to motivate myself to do my homework.
Seriously, I'm ready for a little rest but this ruins everything.
It's so depressing ):

Also not to forget,
Happy Birthday cousin (:

She's exactly one month elder than me.
But this one month, makes a year difference between us, lol.

Promises after promises said and not done.

"I promise I would never leave you"
"I promise I would never hurt you"
"I'm sorry, I keep breaking my promises."

"You are my everything. Everything."

Exactly the same lines. What the fuck.
Seriously I wonder do guy pick up all these lines so easily?
AH GO TO HELL -.- *roll eyes* Sigh.

Dreams come true.

2009-12-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

I had dreams, strong dreams, again. Two of them.
Be it good or bad, such strong dreams I had normally do come true for me.

People call it the 'Magician's Dream'.
It predicts the future. But I'm not one.
My life might've been easier if I am one, haha (Y)

I stopped him from getting away.
I quesioned, I guessed, I cared. He avoids, but eventually compromised & sadly replied.
We both cried a lil & gently embraced each other comfortably.
That's how our life once again collide, like how it happened before.
Needed no explanations, 'cause we both understood what we really wanted.
But dreams don't last, I woke up.

Unexpected behaviours from an unexpected person.
His actions gave a splitting image of the first person I dreamt of.
I broke down, pushed him away and ran for an empty space.
But running away didn't help, I even hoped that splitting image would come looking for me.
In the story of that dream, running away wasn't a solution but a burden.
Once again, dreams don't last & I woke up again.

What are all these telling me?
My mind's ordering me to give up every stupid thoughts.
But my heart wouldn't let go.

Sunsets marks the end, but not all the time.

2009-12-08T15:09:00.001+08:00

Took this photo last week in the studio. Yes, in the studio.
Was looking outside the window, it's pretty cool. Our side always have nice scenery to look at (:
&& this one isn't photoshopped, purely based on my skill & phone k. Lol.

The Critique session isn't that bad afterall.
They say, by talking, you can turn the whole situation towards your advantage and make it awesome (Y)

My heart pumped sibeh hard just before my turn! OMGzxzx.
But I tried and I believed I did relatively well, phew.
Thanks for the encouragements given too ((:

I hope the rest will do well too, jia you jia you!
We'll soar through the stormy sky, and resolves all obstacles.
Doesn't this sound Eagle-like-resolution-principle?
LOL ;D

Now that I'm feeling lethargic...
If you'd excuse me, I'm going to take a nap now.
Ciao! Teeheehee.

p/s: almost forgot...
OMG LUH I DIDN'T KNOW MANY OF MY CLASSMATES READS MY BLOG -.-
I'm quite surprised lately, one by one they admits that they chance upon my blog sometimes.
MUAHAHA TAG ME PEOPLE C'MON TAG :DDDD
Welcome, welcome too~

p/s/s: Also, now that I know, I'd be more careful with my words. HAHAHA! (;

All the time, on my mind.

2009-12-07T21:37:00.001+08:00

We're having our Critique session for our work.
Everybody, let's do our best tomorrow!
Jiayou jiayou, good luck too (:

Mine is during the morning group, urgh tsk wtf lol.
I'll have to get up reallllllllly early in the morning to get ready.
8.30am will have to reach SD office, sian.

Won't it be great if... ?

Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I'm going bonkers :/
C'mon why is this occupying my mind so much?!
Shit always happen when holidays come, tsk.
Sigh.

I KEEP SEEING THING I SHOULDN'T BE!
I'M ALWAYS REMINDED OF THINGS I DON'T WANT TO BE.
A good example - the Topman shirt. & I got totally screwed.

I'm mad. Mad about you.
I wanna know how are you doing right now.

Gone case me.

2009-12-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

Woo, shopping shopping, with Irene.
But isn't really like shopping today, just walking around.

'Cause tried to find what I want to but failed :///
Hmmm nvm luh, look around again next time.

Aww seaweed shaker fries! (Y)
Mama mia woolala~

Along Orchard road.

Get some shades before crossing the road under the rain.

Ignore my eye bags, I'm trying hard to cover them already.

Had fun times and hard times today.
Fun times with Irene, lol. But hard times with my feet.
The heels is killin' me, but I like them! Pinkkkkkk. Tsk (;

Once my barefoot touches the ground now, it hurts like hell.
So I'm like a retard, sitting with my legs kept and set on the chair.

After a long day of walking around, settled down a bit in a particular ladies in ION.
Guess what? Irene and I met Grace and her mother.
WHAT A COINCIDENCE GIRL! :D

Haaaaa, what a long and tiring day.
Tomorrow's Monday again. Tests' week for those having exams.
JIA YOU, GOOD LUCK (:

***********************************

Oh yea side-track a little.
I was talking to Huisian (my classmate/chairman), very interesting!
She actually said something which I never thought she would.
'Cause she's damn guai can? Lol.

JingH says:
hihi
you asked Iain already? what did he say? got lesson nt?

huisian says:
oooo ya...
no lesson
no need to go

JingH says:
WOOOO
but still need to go school to discuss XDM

huisian says:
though we still have that fucking xdm thing
yaloh

JingH says:
OMG YOU SAID FUCKING
OMG
HUISIAN SAID FUCK

huisian says:
overreact lal you
shit lal...I really think we are not given enough time to do the xdm thing lal

LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!
All along I thought Huisian isn't someone who would said such words.
But that doesn't mean she's not guai right?

But seriously, you amazed me Huisian! HAHA.
& the conversation continues, it was fun talking to her.

I'm a goner, seriously.
Why do I always try to run away from problems?
I always fucking do, hide and get away with it.

Only after some time then I would realise this & that...
But what's the point after that in any ways?
End up I'm only causing misery to myself.

Again I've admitted another issue about myself, to myself.

This feeling sucks.
It makes me cry even harder when someone else said it out and you know he/she's right; but you just want to keep mum and let it pass as it is.

I'm a fool. & I know that this issue isn't making me right at all.
This issue, will really portray a tainted image of me.
But who really knows? Who really understands? Hmmm...

I'm super lol too -.-
Was just thinking about this issue so much that I even had a dream of it.
What the fuck right? Sigh.
Who knows will it come true again? Such shits always happen to me, always at the wrong time.

Is everything happening now a coincidence or is it just fated to be?
I want it to happen magically like before again, but I'm worried about the aftermath.
What is wrong with me? Seriously.
I should just give up on that kind of hopeless + senseless thought and get a life.

But everytime I chance upon any little details, it just suck me deep into it.

I fee bad at the same time too, I've made use of you without knowing consciously.
I'm sorry. But what you've done to me, we're even now.
And now, I got to pick up the pieces in me and be honest to myself.

Random updates (:

2009-12-05T19:28:00.001+08:00

Submission is over, at long last.
Next will be critique session and finally my long awaited holidays (Y)

But holidays won't feel like holiday...
One reason - DID launched a new project, it's a tough one ):
2nd reason - no money, how to enjoy?
3rd reason - I have no dates.

AHAHAHA, whatever.
Let natural take its course, I shall slowly see to it.

Now for some photos, random updates.
Not in order sorry, lol.

Hijjah and I at NLB.

Young designers' portfolio @ Suntec convention hall.
Nice layout right? Coolness.

One thing I like about that place (the exhibition @ Suntec);
they have a friendly barista who brews quite good coffee.

I tried to be very careful when I drink the coffee luh, didn't want to spoil the nice design.

Notice my darkkkkk darkkkkkkkk circle and heavy eye bags?
Loves my Cherry headphone, best companion on trips.

Reminds me of something...
I wonder where did the 520 went to now.
& those in the wallet.

LOLLIPOP :DDDD

This was taken about 3 weeks ago.
@ Marina's BK with Erlin dear (;

很多事情看开了就较少难过
思念是一种疗伤的过程
会让你回味无穷
我宁愿思念，不要重复过程

I know, I have my good points too.
You should know too. Heh!

Fall, fall for me. Fall for who I am.
Fall for my trap without realising it.
Take your time, enjoy the game of sweet temptation.

3dmax -.-

2009-12-03T22:25:00.001+08:00

I hate 3dmax! Very zzzz.
Hate it hate it hate it ):

Just when I thought things was going to be over soon enough.
Elaine (one of my lecturer) launched a new one.

NICE ONE UH, NICE. THANKS AH, THANKS (Y)
There goes my fantastic holiday, BYE~
There goes my MON-NEH, BYE~ T.T
))))))))))):

After the trauma of wooden frame...... Have to make another.
Referring to floor plans, find the measurements,
design space using the same concept.
Woohoo, all hail down to the greatness of making models -.-

Sighhhhhhhhhhzxzxzxzxzx.
Isn't there anything that can slightly make my day?
I'm very easily contented one luh :/

So much so much.

2009-12-02T23:55:00.001+08:00

THERE'S SO MANY PHASES OF LYRICS.
SO MANY SO MANY.
SO MUCH SO MUCH.
OMGWTFXZXZXZ.
AND ALL THOSE LYRICS SAYS IT ALL!!

Screw yourself. LOL.

(;

AND YOU, YOU, YOU, AND YOU!!!!!!!!!!
There's a few different people in my mind now.
ALL OF YOU AH, KAR NEE DE NAR :D
I'm very fickle-minded, lol.

Call me crazy, call me trying to numb myself, whatever.
I don't care already.

It's ok, I'll take my time.
I shall go easy on myself.
I'm spending another 2 years+ in SP, what's there to be scared of right?
就算没人要，也没关系，我做女强人.
LOL, sound comforting right? I know.

Remember my previous post was saying that my head
was spinning?
I really meant it, my head was literally spinning.
My eyes couldn't even stay open for more than 3 seconds.

End up my mum came over to fetch me home, lol.
Wtf.

Anyway, because it's the SUBMISSION'S WEEK, so it's very happening in Design school now.

It's not easy. Really.
But it's ok, I still managed to survived, didn't I?

You spin my head right round.

2009-12-01T21:34:00.001+08:00

I can feel the motion surrounding me is different.
It's spinning like mad.

I wanna faint, I might feel better that way.
But my sheer will isn't letting me. Nice one.

On top of me, there's something VERY wrong with me!
OMG, I'm worried that I will do something crazy...
I often amaze people around me, including myself -.-

If i ever reveal a decision unexpected of me,
especially important matters, please stop me.
me = wtf.

reminiscence

2009-12-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

New Found Glory- Love Fool

I was on my way home and my phone shuffled to this song.
The lyrics really hit me hard, very true.
Haa.

I got home, my mother was tidying up my room -.-
I saw a book on the table, the photo booklet thingy for 2008.

Familiar faces up there, made me smiled but wanna cry too.
Some which I missed dearly, while some I'd choose to avoid.
I miss those fun times, but I only live once.

This was a birthday card I received when I was Sec3 (if I didn't rmb wrongly)
It was made by some girls from my ex-class.

Thanks girls, especially putting up a Sec 1 photo & getting
our classmates to sign (:
I'd keep this forever, I will.

I see those faces up there, lol very cute.
& BACK WHEN I WAS SUPER DUPER NOOB-LOOKING!
Omgggggggggggggggzxzxzxzxzx -.-

Everyone always bicker childishly for some reasons.
Never paying attention but gossiping non-stop in class.

Erlin and I always compete for more Gan Brothers!
& we ended up with a whole bunch of them LOL.

Hmmm... First one to last one to take in.
(Jerald, Shenghui, Eric, Alvin, Weilie, Erwin, Zhongwei)
ALL IN, except Chunheng, die die don't want zzz.

They all wear glasses, all about same height (back then),
ALL PLAY GAMES, all sit in front LOL.
I had hard times knowing which one is who -.-

Stupid Haris always disturbing me and Zhongwei especially.
We all usually ended up chasing each other with broomsticks in class (Y)

Shenghui always very 38 fight with me -.- Si sampat, HAHA!

Lololol ok this is getting longer and longer.
Anyway, I remember many many things the rest might have already forgotten.
I miss those times, am serious.

Oh ya back to topic - My mother cleaning my place.
She's been keeping a file with some documents about me.
I saw this damn cute picture HAHAHA!

THIS IS EXCLUSIVE OK!
First time I uploaded a picture of my child look. Lol.

Cute right!
Judging by the look of my uniform, I think you all can guess how old I was?

Teeheehee.
Talk about fun times, there are sad ones too right?
Shall not say much already, it just makes my heart sick.

Ciao!

♥ love.

2009-11-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

Been seriously busy, yup.
Life's like this in poly, especially in design course.

There are lots of assignments and datelines to accomplish!
Wish me luck and do cheer for me :P

Iain - My lecturer, planned a special assignment for us.
So-called "Amazing Race" :///
Had to crack Morse code to know the location, time & date.

After solving that issue, go to the place & take photos.
Got to take really nice photos under the scorching hot sun = HELL.

I was initially whining about how stupid this thing was.
But later on Hijjah and I saw Weekiat climbed up the ladder,
which leads up to the rooftop of the 7 floor HDB flat.

Hayley and Shuli were waiting for him to get permission.
For? Taking photos at the rooftop.

Hijjah and I joined in (;
But Sophia sadly didn't want to come with us, plus she couldn't.

Hayley, Weekiat, Shuli.

Me (:

The trip to the rooftop was awesome (Y)
Nice view even though it isn't as tall as other buildings.
It's the first HDB flat ever built in SG (@ Queenstown), what do you expect? Lol.

Great view, good lighting, cool pictures.
Woolala (:

So the trip down to Queenstown wasn't that bad afterall.
Nice experience, heh.

I spent a lottttttttttttttttt, oh fuck. Sigh.
There's always a need to, heart pain my money ):
Holiday, I'll need a job urgently!

Rachel hasn't been sending me job intro-msgs lately.
I hope it will spam-roll in when time comes! *pretty please, innocent eyes*

I NEED MON-NEH LA.
NO MONEY NO TALK.

Christmas's coming. New Year next & 18th birthday.
I wanna get presents for Xmas.

New Year is always a good time for a good start.

I want something big for my 18th birthday.
I'm planning something awesome for myself, teeheehee.
But it can't be fulfilled if there's no mon-neh ):

Haha, off for dinner and chiong work again (;
p/s: the photographs up there, are all taken using my 5mp phone camera ♥

I miss the old times.
I couldn't forget.
I still can't forgive you for breaking the promises.

Back then when I thought to myself, I want to be your last, first kiss.
I remember...
Everything little things you've said, how hard you tried to convey & times spent together.

我想我需要移情别恋才能忘记

What hardcore-ness.

2009-11-25T00:19:00.001+08:00

AAAHHHHH~ -.- Fuck, sibeh tired.
I'll get nasty if you choose to mess around
with me at this period of time.
Very wrong and stupid.

I had to deal with my heavy emotions during the previous 2 days.
Extremely heavy, to a extent that I can't take it.

I went bonkers at home, a stage where you normal people can't reach.
But of course, went bonkers quietly in my own room luh.

I don't know what to do with my model already.
I really tried hard.
I have other things to look forward to, I'll just have to keep moving on.

A big pile of tedious work waiting for me.
Mama's comin' to finish you up baby!
JIA YOU JIA YOU!

*slightly pat my chest a little, cough cough* LOL.

One phase - Super-duper ulti-damn-mate-ly TIRED!
(Y)

Once this peak period of submission is over,
I'm so gonna pamper myself.
But of course, I need money first (;

p/s: Lollipops and Candy Floss FTW!
Thanks for the candy floss, loves :D
p/s/s: Realised I'll always find time to blog almost everyday?
Girls like me now, just had to rant.

Story of another.

2009-11-24T01:21:00.001+08:00

Ahhh, it's kind of late now.
Today's fine except during the morning when I'd to
chiong to school, felt very dizzy -.-

Heard some fucked-up stories from a friend lately and I shall not disclose the name.
But if you guy were in such situations, I bet y'all would be !@#Q$#@%#@% too.

Part time teacher A - Sibeh fucked-up guai lan asshole.
Full time teacher B - Nice person overall, and afterall.
Student C - Hardworking, always kenna bully.

C always does her homework very diligently!
Tries her best to fulfill what's needed and never stops working.
But always get bullied, especially by fucked-up A -.-

B understands that C is very hardworking, relatively fair teacher
and try to help if she is around or can.

A teaches C a module, B teaches C another module.
Both teach C but don't know why A super-duper asshole.

A always see C buay song, biased and often give her
non-constructive comments on how to IMPROVE her work.

Once, C consults A about her work.
A critisized C like some bullshit and never show any needed respect as a student at all.
Wtf?

C then improved on her work and consulted B.
B says it's fine, she likes her work!

But when presented to A, again it's bullshit comments on her.
While on the other hand, accepting to whatever effortless work that other students present.

UNFAIR ASSHOLE -.-

All the time, A rejects C's work = can't finish or progress at all.
But A still pressurised C to finish otherwise C's grade affected.
AGAIN, praising other students' effortless work as well.

Another time, A didn't give out clear instructions!
Didn't instruct what is supposed to be showed/handed in,
he expects everybody to send him the email of the uninstructed finished work.

When did he TELL "EVERYONE" to send him?
11PLUS PM AT NIGHT, and must send NOW -.-
Wtf?

No in fact, he didn't tell everyone. He only told a individual
student, and expect that student to spread
the messenge across the whole course of student.

DUMB ASS!
UNFAIR FUCKED-UP PUSSY.

Just because he's a part-timer doesn't mean
he doesn't bear the responsibility as a TUTOR!

Part-timer? So what? You're still a tutor, so you should bear
all the responsibility and BE LIKE A PROPER TUTOR
when you should in the expected period of time!

Wtf man, this kind of dumbass uh, should really
bang the wall 'till his balls got ripped off from some hooks
on the wall hanging, and die on the spot.
(Y)(Y)(Y)

Got this kind of unfair teacher?
Late night ask you send work when you're supposed to hand in a later due date.
Siao not?

AHH, I feel so angry that I just HAD to rant here.

Sunday's early evening.

2009-11-22T16:37:00.001+08:00

Inevitable - Anberlin

I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss

We end up hurting the worst,
the only ones we really love

I used to hate slow songs 'cause it only brings me pain.
I always skip these songs.

But now, I learn to accept and appreciate.
Not the pain, but the feeling of reminiscence.
& when I remember, I'll still smile even though tears are rolling.

That is how I'm going to grow stronger, yes I will (:

(from deviantart)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG ZU BRO (:
Glad you liked the present.

[/edit]

Sibeh sian. This is the first time I screwed up a model.
I've never made something like this before -.-
So un-artistic. My artistic sense of touch is losing already.
)))))):

*depressed*

Knn just now feeling very fucked up too :/
No actually I haven't been right since Friday. Lol.
That's what I was told last Friday? Which I didn't realised until yesterday.

I always hide in my room at home unless I have
to come out and eat bath etc.
But yesterday (SATURDAY!) and today I've been
staying at home quietly and stoning.

Loooooooooooooooooool, going crazy.
I still have so many work I've yet to complete, that's worst!
OTL|||

I want holidays to come quickly...
I need to cool down in another place...
I have to relax and rest...
Can money please to me right now?

I wanna go malaysia to shop with Wanling.
I wanna celebrate Christmas with my friends.
I wanna get money this holiday.
I wanna win that competition.
I want this sad year to pass quickly.
I want next year to be way better.

& I want to stop crying...

I've seen enough, it's all the same.

2009-11-21T14:40:00.001+08:00

I need some serious inspiration.
My ideas are so scattered, I can't put them together.

(credits: Got this picture from deviant art and edited it)

Sigh.

This morning when I tried to get up from bed,
it was very difficult. My body wouldn't move much.
I felt very heavy, submerged to the bed.

I could only move my limbs, but just can't get up.
Wtf that moment sucked. I thought I was going to die.

Ah, but whatever I thought too.
'Cause Tongtong is right beside me, he's all I have (:
& I continue sleeping again, lol.

Yea it's all the same
No matter what form they appear as
No matter what they say or do
They all have the same goal to reach out for

You

Your heart is their trophy
Your feelings are their prize
Your care is their expectations
Your tears are their bonus

They never change

You see the ugliness of these people
Disgusted, confused, hurt, hate, love
Until the end, you realised the goods was all an illusion

The bads' impact always causes greater aftermath than the goods'
And it's getting harder to breathe each time it happens

I've seen enough, it's all the same
Give me a brand new start
Consist of only me

One Less Lonely Girl

2009-11-20T01:08:00.001+08:00

ONE LESS LONELY GIRL Official Music Video

He's young, only 15years old.
He's got talent, special voice and knows instruments.
(Y)

Shopping is fun (:
But the pain is to spend money, lol.
At least I got a pair of nice shoes.

CIAO, good night. Loves!

Limits.

2009-11-17T03:55:00.001+08:00

累积下来的烦恼，在忍无可忍的情况下爆炸
我像是气球般，好辛苦

It's 3.45 am, I've got no where to pour out but my space here.
Bear with me.
I'm afraid I can't take it much longer.

Even so, life still have to move on.
Even so, I still have to keep going on ):
I hate this. But I got to stay calm like how I always am, or shown.

No, never am I will reveal my weak expression, face to face.
I've got to be strong in order to survive.
I must follow my plan.

But it's so tiring to grow up so soon... ):

Today (or in fact yesterday) is such a bad day.
Please please, try harder to protect your good image?
I've been trying to keep the good impression and wanna
make that part of the memory lasting, don't ruin it.

Once ruined, the crack can never patch back. Never.
I don't want another part of me ruined.

Sigh, realised that in the end I always self-console after depression?
I wished I could be a little more selfish to myself though.

So quiet you were.

2009-11-16T15:55:00.001+08:00

I'm in school right now, school will end at 6pm.
But my assignments will never have a end coming ):

Sorry to friends I've neglected, I'm really .... !@#$%^
You all know it (: Heh, seek your understanding.
You know I'm still as sweet as ever, HAHA :D

And so, here we are all freezing in our studio with all
the fucked-up air-cons :///
It's bound to be a bitch, in human form that is, lol.

TOO COLDDDDD ):
We can't adjust the temperature 'cause we don't know where is the god damn controller.

Just so you know, I'll be staying back 'till quite late
to finish up my work. So good luck to me!

||btw, I'm having a guest lecture + workshop: GLASS||

(Y) The angmoh, he's a nice person. Dominic Flonde.
His workshop is interesting and his works are marvellous! Glass engraving.
The best part is, we're fully subsidised for this awesome-ness.
*wriggle brows*

I'm practically shivering now, wooolala~
A cup of hot milo/hot chocolate/hot coffee, join me anybody???
I want my sensational 10minutes.

Now I know.

2009-11-14T16:14:00.000+08:00

A weird dream.
A weird scene.
A weird change of status.
A weird target of people.

Bizarre feelings.
Bizarre change.
Bizarre way of telling me things(?)

I only wished a part of it would come true
- I migrated to a European country & enjoy night life.
(;

Black Friday.

2009-11-14T00:47:00.001+08:00

It's Friday, the 13th.
I wasn't jinxed, I was jinx-ing :// Things just couldn't get any worst.
Ok I shall not elaborate further, tsk.

Crazy times we had in and outside the studio.
It's time to get back to serious work. *breathes in, and out deeply*

I can feel the death rate of my brain cells are increasing rapidly, lol.
Nice uh (Y) *nod head and smiles*

Today's GEMs isn't as bad as I thought.
The guy was friendly, the interview was quite successful.
But as I expected, I can never pass through that wall I built in myself, lol.

As always, I won't be going further in-depth with the person after
my business with him/her is done. Lol.
I guess I really have to learn how to be more "open".
Instead of always pulling a long face and seals myself away.

Jyjy, I need a greater network in order to survive in this kind of industry.
在家靠家人，在外靠朋友！

Alright alright, I got to go continue with my pile of never-ending assignments.
JIAYOU :D Ciao!
But I'm very sleepy right now........................... *rubs eyes, yawns!*

Soon, it's another week.

2009-11-13T00:16:00.001+08:00

So it's a hectic week and I seem to be on hiatus from the outside world.
Woolala (: Haha.

Apparently I have a submission dateline, today.
School starts at 11am and I was late for 10mins or so.

I reached outside the studio door, Nurul was there pasting something.
I saw what she was doing and recognise it was a Visual Diary that's she doing.

J: "why do you look like you're rushing?"
N: "today submit what"
J: "huh? today submission???"
N: "you don't know? it's today!"
J: "OMG, WHAT THE FFFFF. *dashed into the studio*"

Fortunately I finished everything with no sweat though.
Put them in order, wrote the captions.
Had them printed (for free in the studio *wrigglebrows*) and binded for $1.50 in the library.

I must say, that worker there, not the usual lady boss
but an Indian man is a little retarded -.-
I just HAD to repeat my every single sentence TWICE before he could understand.

I'm not trying to be racist here k, if you were around you'd think so too.
Right Hijjah? Haha.

So handed in at 2.23pm when the dateline time is 5pm.
B))))

I also have to say,
THE STUDIO IS BLOODY COLD! )))): *shivers*
The air-conditioner's fault, THAT BITCH!
The weather is another contributing factor, gawd spare me please *roll eyes*

I never liked drinking hot drinks outside, not even when I'm home or ill.
But lately I've been thinking that hot drinks isn't that bad after all.
At least it keeps me warm for that sensational 10mins while drinking.

Hope tomorrow's GEMs will be good.
One to one interview with the opposite sex, I have a bad feeling about this.

'Cause I'll have to act all oh-so-interactive again
to get this shit done, and then instantly turned back
into black-face-me after that.

Waa I seriously need some quick bucks dropping from the sky now.
That'd will help (; I always spend one, tsk.

Sentimental thoughts.

2009-11-11T17:30:00.001+08:00

Ok here I am at home right now, sorting out some stuff.
Thinking 'bout issues, people, mind games(?), why(?).
Also seeking for inspiration for my project.

Human can never understand human, because they don't even know themselves well enough to begin with.

That's why I say human-and-human relationships are difficult to handle.
To be frank, not that I wanna complicate things, but sometimes I just can't help it.
You know it, means you know it, right?

ROAR, tsk.
Aww... Can I start everything all over again? I don't mind.
Because each time I try to analyse or think about stuffs, it tires me out.
But what to do? This is life, this is how you handle, this is it.

Oh by the way, I've many ideas flowing through my mind for this project.
Hopefully the puzzle pieces could be nicely done up together.
I don't wanna fail myself in something that I'm good with.

But come to think it, once you've seen through things and people,
you tend to know how to handle the blow and avoid them as you'd expected it to happen anyway.
Hmmm...

OH FUCK I FEEL VERY SENTIMENTAL AND OLD SUDDENLY! DDDDDD:

Tsk.
*roll eyes*
LOL.

I'm looking forward to better days! When will they come?
It's tiring to grow up, 我不想长大。

Share.

2009-11-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

What's your fetish for colour(s)?

Mine's Pink yo!
Let simple things be your pleasure.
Let high and mighty colours that you're fond of,
fill part of your life with joy.

Negative, positive, neutral?
Mix your feelings like colours and get the shade you've been yearning for.

Perhaps Black and White suits you as well?
But don't always stick to one, don't get yourself bored.
There're so many varieties out there waiting;
wanting to be 'your pleasure'.

Hahahahaha, random thoughts (:
MOSHI MOSHI!
I haven't been sleeping enough for the past few days yo.
As usual anyway.
So I wouldn't be that surprised if my body breaks down one day.

Hmmm...
Lots of work lately already, my eyes are very tired.
I hardly feel ease, lolzxzxzxzx :///

Ok some random photos.

I was very pink that day.

I've been wearing/using;
Pink scarf, Pink Cherry headphone, Pink shoes, Pink bottle.
(Y) Love it.

My wooden frame, chio.

Self-obsession.

Rose obsession. Found this on deviant art, gorgeous (:

I made a wish, I've set a goal.
What I wanted for this Christmas, and my 18th birthday.
Yea, these are the little things that filled my life with spices of fond happiness, cruel sorrows.
What's yours?

Sian 1/2

2009-11-10T00:57:00.001+08:00

Waaaaa, booohoooo!!!!!
Just as I thought James lee might a be merciful teacher ):
He looks, acts, and is really nice.
Always smiling and so gentle.

But I'm guessing there's a devilish side of him, behind that smiling mask!
'Cause his work is driving me NUTS.
Waa I get damn emotional whenever I need to start doing his work.
He's out to torture us bit by bit.

Got to trace and practice the drawings - that I don't mind.
But tracing without a lightbox?
HELL FOR ME - this pampered art student who relied on the mighty lightbox.
LOL.

FML LA ))):
Everytime there's a submission, homework, new project, I get insane.
Damn miserable and no lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..............................

Sigh.

I wanna sleep my way through this life, don't let me wake up from tongtong's embrace.
(a bit lol)

SEE I'M GETTING EMOTIONAL ALREADY!
OH GAWD :/// ZZZZ.

Haiya whatever luh, I wanna sleep leh ):
My eyes is in their extreme level now; extremely tired.
Roarrrrrr!

FMLFMLFML.
Oh yea sorry uh forgotten that, Design students has no life luh.
How to F? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ):

Get over it, get a life.

2009-11-08T02:56:00.001+08:00

So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?

The Saltwater Room-Owl City music video w/ lyrics

Owl city don't have a MV for this song, sad ))):
But this video's kind of cute though, lol.

I think if they really were to make a MV, it's bound to be
super-duper sweet + abstract-art + blue-ish-sea-feeling + AWESOME.
(Y)

I am, still, very obsessed with this song D:
It's pretty amazing, y'know.
Whenever I feel tired, upset, or uneasy, I'll listen to this song.
Everything will turn out fine, it's like my favourite lullaby.

你的“毫不犹豫” 在陌生人面前认我是你妹妹，你给的支持和保护，谢谢你。
身边的好友给豫的爱永远是最好的 ♥
情人始终没能完成永远的承诺，往往都变成结束后的谎言，朋友却可以真心的为你好。

还是单身轻松。
我决定的事，我不想要有任何改变。所以请不要在自以为是的闯入别人的生活。
有时候因为有人的出现，以为会改变一切，但其实只是又来了一道伤痛。
失望却不忍心为难。。。还这样保持距离的好。

Frowning...

2009-11-07T02:19:00.001+08:00

Like I said, the workload gets heavier each day!
Now I'm pretty much fucked up by it.
There's so many things to do!

I don't know how to start, which to start, where to start from.
Very very confused and stressed
Save me pretty please? Guide me! ):

I wanna cry already... I've been wasting TOO MUCH time.
Still wanna relax, window shopping, walk walk, DREAM ON AH MORON!
)))):
Screw all the nonsense shooting me down now, screw it hard! Zzz.

Photos for memories (:

2009-11-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the delay of this update :/
And so, another drinking session with Wanling (:

With a new friend this time, Shenghui. Haha.

Shiny shiny bling bling ^^

They both have link leh :D
They both know me, and they know their friend name Marcus Heng.
I don't know who though, but it's from Wanling's sec school
and currently is known as Shenghui's classmate in TP lol.

What a small small world!

I actually have more photos to upload. But I don't know why I can't bloody
get them uploaded. Sad ):

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY AGAIN.
WOOLALA *wrigglebrows*
(:

Listening to The Fray's Never Say Never.
Feels kind of... Hmmm...
Don't let me go~ Don't let me go~ Don't let me go~
Rather sad and makes you think of the past isn't it?

Hahahahahaha.

:/

I wanna smile graciously, like a matured girl, implying I got over it.

*******************************************

The work load is never ending, the time passes horrifyingly swift.
Oh gawd :///
I feel that this semester is passing so so much faster than the last one.
I don't feel the sense of urgency but I'm worried.

Sighhhhh -.-

If I know how to play a instrument, I'll indulge in playing my compressed emotions.

YAYness.

2009-11-04T01:20:00.001+08:00

Ok am here to take a short break from chiong-ing (;
Took whole loads of photos for the moving animation puppet thingy.
Phui-yoh! Amazing, LOL. I very tired now too. Hahaha.

Anyway remember I mentioned that I've met a bloody horny bastard uncle in the MRT train before?
The one who keeps POKING HIS BLOODY DICK,
by using the newspaper that he's holding in his hand!

Sibeh horny bastard, tsk tsk tsk *shake head*
Guess what, you might be right.
I SAW HIM TODAY AGAIN!!!!

Oh gawd, give me a break *jaw drops and sian expression*

I was enjoying the music from my Cherry Headphone, so happily :D
THEN saw this weird uncle came into the train, facing my direction, with his hands near his dick position.

- Hand holding newspaper
- Hand near his toot
- Hand moves
- look up and saw his horny face
- INSTANTLY RECOGNISE IT'S THAT SAME CHEE KO PEK!
- He steam leh wtf.

Look out for these points if you ever bump into him, stare right into his eyes and beat him up.
LOL, for showing bad example to kids and behaving inappropriately in public.

So I damn angry, feeling so sian-ed and OMGzxzxzx why-is-it-so-miserable-in-such-early-morning.

- I stared at him vigoriously
- I turned away
- I turned my face back
- FACE BLACK
- Cracked my knuckles

................................

He turned and walked away.
LOL LOL LOL.
He walked far far far away and into another 'cabinet' of the train.
Woo, victory (; MUAHAHA!

Kk, NIGHTS EVERYBODY.
Take care and ciaos :D
P/s: I WANT MON-NEH! I WANT BUY MANY MANY THINGS! I WANT MON-NEHHHHHHHH~~~

It's alright!

2009-11-02T23:23:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... 11pm. Nice timing for a blog entry.
I don't have the motivation to finish my hmwork right now.

Screw you, screw it, screw everything! Especially ... Zzz.
AH, nevermind forget it, I don't wanna bother either.

Because if I ever start to bother it'll just takes up my space, time, heart, mind.
So why should I?
Fuck off and roll away *waves, smiles graciously :D*

Epic ain't I? SAY YES!
Good.

I hate sarcastic and brainless replies. Seriously gettin' on my nerves.
Wo bu yao gen ni yi ban jian shi.
Whatever said, promised, be friends, *turn away and semi-laugh-smile*
It's ok.
Don't feel like talking anymore.

Oh yea, you'd better be good bro! I trust you, really.
And stop thinking THAT way, you know you aren't (:
I like her ok! Lol.
Cheer up, everything's going to be fine!
Don't fret, be strong.

A human's heart is complicated.
A woman's heart is beyond being complex.
I don't know myself anymore, not to mention anybody else.

Bros.

2009-11-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

Had a great-day-out. Not that great but it is nice like that once in a while.
Met up with Weiyi, he treat me at TCC cafe :D
Not Swensens, but it's ok! TCC was way more high-class (I think. The one at Orchard).

LOL. Thanks a million for the treat!! (for some reasons LOL)
I saw one 50 dollars note went in, and only 6 dollars plus came back as change!
WTF wtfwtfwtf D:
But the place was great, food and drinks were AWESOME!

I forgot to take the drinks -.- One iced latte and one iced espresso. Heavenly!
There's the Devil's Tiramisu if I didn't remember the name wrongly lol.
& I forgot what's the other dish called, it was very yummy, cheesy.
We shared that and both were damn nice la.

After that, we went to watch Yongzu's String Instrument Concert.
It's a pity that we missed the first half of the concert, we were pretty late haha!

Due to the heavy rain luh... Tsk.
We got stuck in the damn mrt for nearly 10mins -.- Waste time.
But it's ok, at least we didn't miss his solo performance later on.

He was standing right in front of the whole group.
Coolness! :D

He played Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin.
(Moon represents my heart)

Kk, I'm guessing I still have a lot of hmwork undone. HAHA.
Tuesday is 3Dmx, Wednesday is HTI Essay.
TOMORROW GOD DAMN LECTURE, everybody squeeze into that tiny studio.
Fuck!!??

OK TIME TO COMPLAIN.

Oh yea did I mention?
FIVE INTERIOR DESIGN CLASSES SQUEEZED INTO ONE STUDIO!
OMGZXZXZXZXZXZX!!!!

Super absurd can? Everyone had to waste time moving here and there.
Why can't they just have the morning lecture at some lecture hall or theatre?
Not as if the MLT1 is there for SHOW right? Zzzzz -.-

Then they wouldn't have to waste time, again and again; chasing students
to roll their chairs to here and there for lessons.
Or even waste time "planning" this - squeeze all of us into one studio.

There's about 80 to 90 of us!
Tell me, how are we able to focus like that?
We shall see... We shall see... This year's planning for our semester, terrible.

Alright enough of those zzzz thoughts.
Sigh.

I have a nice song to share with everyone, Yellow.
Knew this song through Yongzu. Thanks for sharing (:

Coldplay - Yellow (acoustic) Influential Sessions (on iTunes)

He's not from Coldplay, but a member of Boyce Avenue.

p/s: I've always felt proud of my brothers. Really really.
p/s/s: Just received a call from Sandy's friend, there's a research project
due tomorrow, oh fuck totally forgotten about it and I haven't done
any shit! SHIT!!!! T.T

Happiness.

2009-10-31T13:55:00.000+08:00

Ni xing fu ma?
Wo zhi xiang wen yi ju, ni xing fu ma?
Wo dang chu zuo de xuan ze, shi dui de (:
Jiu suan ni bu cheng ren, wo hai shi kan de chu lai.

I finally fulfilled what I've promised that morning.
The results are what I've been waiting for, and I'm glad it came true.
I know... I know... I really do.

People comes and goes.

2009-10-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

Let me start talking about this reallyyyyyy unusual dream I had last night.

I was in this dry, cooling foreign place...
I travel around for don't-know-what-reason(s) and I bumped into two primary school friends.

They seem to be guiding me where to go next.
And I remembered I had a crazy ride along the way... -.- Fast, blurred, werid -.-
And then I met a poly classmate of mine later on.

We were walking out to a carpark, suddenly there's a group of guy making lots of noises behind us.
We two poor girls got scared, *hide behind a truck*
Watching them walk by. But one botak-angmoh saw us and took a baseball bat charging towards us!

OMG scared the hell out of me, he smashed the windows of the cars he passed by while charging.
Looks damn violent as if he's going to beat the crap out of us!

I got so scared and I woke up.
Wtf -.- Si violent angmoh, may you stay botak for the rest of your damn life.
Stay away from me, for heaven's sake.

So, I was very late this afternoon. & I didn't something I shouldn't have. *wrigglebrows*
But it's ok, once in a while, y'know.

Met Weiyi bro :DDD Hahaha hilarious jokes we will crack on each other always.
Something like fan jian, LOL.
Also won't forget about another two elder bros I have, Yongzu and Aaron :D
Don't jealous, I got mention you two too ok (; All the best bros ever.

Anyway, went to party later on with Irene, Grace and Wenling.
I sort of extra-ly tagged along, asked by them too hehe.
Photos will be up soon on FB I promise!

Oh yea had a long chat with this girl.
THEN I realised how much my thoughts, character had grown,
within this transformation from secondary school to poly life.
I used to be damn, damn -.- Hahahaha!

&& I'll get to eat Swensens Ice-cream tomorrow MUAHAHAHA.
(If nothing major appears out of no where, stopping me from eating it, I call it - Fate)
&&& I'll go give you support brother (;
&&&& I KNEW THAT IT WAS A JOKE PLAYED ON ME!

People like you uh, I've met many! Don't play jokes on big sister la huh, you're still small.
But I'll you get pass by, 'cause you're not important, so doesn't bother me much.
*flicks hair, smiles graciously*

Joy?

2009-10-29T22:55:00.001+08:00

My long awaited Friday is arriving tomorrow!
It's been another tiring week, SHAGGED badly )):

I'm horribly tired right now...
I can't think straight, I cannot focus on my visions well, I can't even bloody sleep -.-

Just now went to Vivocity with Grace and Irene to have dinner and some window shopping.
Caught sight of many many deals but pocket empty T^T
Gua gua gua...

THEN, I felt a strong gush of don't-know-what-feeling, chiong right up into my head!!!!
But that weird feeling somewhat made think like as if I'M GOING TO NOSEBLEED!
Though I've never nosebleed before la huh, but I really felt like that! Haha.
Very uncomfortable, very pek chek too.

What's more, somebody just insist on not telling me what's going on!
Getting on my nerves soon, I'm going to call the police already. Lol.
That somebody ah, tsk. Take care la girl, always make us worry for you.

Tomorrow's GEMs again. Need bring my baby.
Oh yea hope tomorrow will have fun.

&& my fingers quite pain now :///
Kept typing sms-ing typing sms-ing typing sms-ing, lol.
Don't know why there're especially a lot of smses rolling in today.

&&& what a joke, I barely know you well yet.
Don't kid with me (:

A simple song.

2009-10-29T09:26:00.001+08:00

This is the 3rd time I'm typing this.
I backspace-ed the previous 2 typings with about 3 paragraphs each.
Thought that what I typed was kind of senseless, with a hint of dejection.

Holding back is my forte (;

The Saltwater Room, it touches my heart.
I could imagine the story right in my mind.
I'm addicted to it, I'm addicted to the lyrics, rhythm, story, voice.
I can't shake off the deep, melty, sweet feeling.

Hardcore day and night.

2009-10-26T21:55:00.002+08:00

My iTunes had 'The Saltwater Room' by Owl City repeated 75times in one night!
I couldn't turn myself into bed, I don't know what's damn wrong with me.

8am to 6pm today. It's 9.40pm, I just reached home around 20mins ago.
I feel so shagged that I don't feel like uttering even a word.

Y'know what? I'm going to act like how a young adult should act; stay calm.
'Cause I know I previously took much longer, much more effort before I admit
to myself that I'M FINE!

GIVE ME A BREAK. No, I should shout this to myself, GIVE MYSELF A BLOODY BREAK!
Get this into your bloody thick skull, and know it right.

Sigh, whatever la.
I'm tired to feel anything right now too.

Nice song! Listen to The Saltwater Room too! :P
This is 'Mad About You' by Big Bang (:

(GD: Yea)
(SR) The love I’m feeling (You know girl)
Is just simply amazing (Just simply amazing)
Need you in my life (I need you)
Don’t throw this away
(Say I love you, don’t cha)

(YB)Girl, girl, you’re so fly, oh my (GD: Girl, girl, you’re so fly, oh my)
I, I need you by my side (I said I need you girl, I need you right by my side)
You’re, you’re always on my mind (You’ll, you’ll always be on my mind)
And, and you are mine for life (Now let me tell you what I’m feeling, how it feels like)

GD:
The minute that I met you was like ‘Whoa’
And every thing about you was so beauti-damn-ful
You know I had to get the digits, yo yo
The 4-1-1, the things that you like, and don’t like
Got a feeling you’re the one I’ve been dreaming of
Got a feeling in my heart, and it’s screaming ‘Love’
It’s you I live my life for, it’s the one I adore
I’m gonna love you for life
And baby that’s fosho
Feel me?

Japanese Falsetto // Chorus:
Miageta sorano hyojo
kimiwo omouto kagayakidashita.
Mezamete suguno kanjo takanaru kodo
kimini muchu-sa.
Afuredasu kono omoi wo ryote ni sotto uketometanara
Aitai to omou kokoro kono tede motto todokete yuko.

GD:
I love you, I love you not
I love you, I love you not
I miss you, I need you
Come back to me
C’mon

(DS)Girl, girl, you’re so fly, oh my (TOP: Girl, girl, you’re so fly, oh my)
I, I need you by my side (I said I need you girl, I need you right by my side)
You’re, you’re always on my mind (You’ll, you’ll always be on my mind)
And, and you are mine for life (Now let me tell you what I’m feeling, how it feels like)

TOP:
Mind-blowing, girl you are oh so (Oh)
Dedicated to me, girl that’s awesome (so awesome)
Everybody wanna know this all so (yea, c’mon)
So I’m about to hit ‘em with a super-fly flow

Yo, yo, my baby got it goin’ on for life (for life)
And she can never do wrong
I’m telling you, she’s more than right
(For me) That’s right, (fo sheez) you know that’s right
Know what I mean?

Repeat Falsetto // Chorus

YB:
And every morning as I wake I smile
So complete, so indeed
In love, it’s heaven fosho
I love her forevermore
Cuz she keeps on bringing true love that I need, hey

(SR) There ain’t nothing I won’t do
You can call me anytime
(DS) Oh, girl you are my everything
That’s everything, no lie
(SR) You are the one that I wanna be with every single time
(DS) We’re the ones so happy
Until the end, OH

Afuredasu kono omoi wo ryote ni sotto uketometanara
Aitai to omou kokoro kono tede motto todokete yuko.

This song has damn sexy beats, feeling and lyrics are beauti-damn-ful.
LOL!

I feel like dancing to the beats, like there's no tomorrow and drop dead.

(;

Keep the fond, cast out the rest.

2009-10-25T15:55:00.001+08:00

I've buried it down and kept it well within, without any changes to the slightest details.
I've managed to do that, without feeling the urge of getting it back anymore.

It was some fond memories and experience.
I guess I overestimated things & you too much.

I tell myself, it's normal for a girl, unable to accept such a reason for that.
It's also common for a girl, to be sad over things like that.
And now, I'm fine. I'm really fine.

I'm impressively amazed by myself, my progress.

Not in the right mood, yet.

2009-10-25T12:37:00.001+08:00

Moshi moshi! (:
I'm in pretty much positive mood now, but why not in the right mood?
That's because I'm not in the right mood to do my homework, lol!

This morning, collected my new glasses *A*
Love it.

:DDD

Decided that I should get new glasses instead of thinking about contact lenses.
Once a nerd, always a nerd :P
It's ok, I don't mind being a special-case-nerd (;
Don't y'all agree that I'm somewhat different from other nerds? HAHAHA!

I didn't manage to get my Tsquare ruler! ):
The bookstore at my neighborhood isn't selling any.
Popular outlets at Bras Basah, Paya Lebar and Marine Parade aren't selling/no stock!
ROAR~
I guess I'll just have to buy them in school. Obviously.

*stoned for a few minutes*

*got high with the rock music*

*out of breath*

*comb hair*

*pretending I'm not seeing my hmwork, right on my table, next to my baby*

*high with the music again :D*

*depressed, tomorrow school's starting at 8am!*

*drink water*

*sian, nobody's talking on msn*

*picked up Irene's phone call, yay somebody entertain me (wrigglebrows)*

HAHAHA OK I'M SO EPIC LALALALA.

*stops laughing and feel lame for a split second*

I'm fine now I suppose, congratulations to myself.

Shop shop

2009-10-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday - New glasses.
Today - 2 new wallets (Black and Pink), a skirt.
Tomorrow - Tsquare ruler.
Hmm... what's next?

Saw this at TOPSHOP, tried it on and I like it quite a lot!
But...... It cost 92dollars if I didn't remember wrongly! -.-
Sad.

OHHH MY TSQUARE RULER PLEASE COME TO ME! COME TO ME COME TO ME!
I'd better be bloody lucky to find one tomorrow, or else I'm screwed -.-

BBQ was ... ... ...
Shall not elaborate much, since I knew from the start that my intuition(s) will never fail me.

The issues about lesbians are arising within my surrounding D:
Is it so popular now huh? Hmmm...

Heeeh, new glasses!

2009-10-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

Wooolala, another of my pending-mode-shopping has been done!
I've been whining; want a new pair of glasses.
Just got my tire eyes tested, chosen my new frame and viola!

Interestingly, the lady told me that my left eye's short sightedness decreased D:
And she said it's not surprising because I'm still in puberty age, LOL LOL!
C'mon I'm 17 already :P
But she told me girls GROWS, slower, at the age of 22.

During the GROWING AGE:
90% of people wearing glasses - increase
5% - maintain their degree
5% - decreased degree > ME!

AND she said my eyes are dry, very very tired! :///
Must have stressed them due to rushing of assignments, lack of sleep etc.

AND AND I think the design is unique :DDD Not many own such design yet.
It's special one neh! Heh.

AND AND AND, muahahaha I'm so excited (:

Collecting it tomorrow night.
I hope I can make it? Like, timing wise.
'Cause I promised to attend a BBQ party along with my family, invited by my father's boss -.-

BBQ........ ECP................ W-t-h.
I have a bad feeling about this, sixth sense.
As in, not going to have fun -.-

(Unless there's some eye-candy there, that's another story (; HAHA)

Oh yes, I swear, I got depressed and sian 1/2 for the whole day!!!!
I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE OUT~
Nice one -.-!!! No music, no communication, no sense of security.

It's as if the line which connects myself & the outside world got cut off!
My mind keep has the rhythm flowing, but no music fed to my ears T^T

Neh-mind, I'm back now, heeeeh!

Tomorrow; more shopping for more work, more fun (I'm hoping), more cheerful.
Of course, more designer-ish Jinghui (:

Feels like there's no tomorrow.

2009-10-22T23:27:00.001+08:00

Weekends, woo!
It's the last day of school of the week! (Supposedly, zzz)
I don't have lessons on Friday but I'd to go school due to GEMs.
*momentarily depressed* -.-

What to do tomorrow? I'm actually quite nervous about it.
1 - 3pm, anybody wanna date me after that? LOL.

So... Hmmm... Met Janelle (aka Xiaoqin), Benjamin Yeo, Ismail and Jiahui
in SP's food court 5 just now.
I was pleasantly surprised to see them :D

So caught up with them, chatted and it was nice to have such a gathering.
Next time, shall be my turn to visit NP then (; Heh.

Oh yea, today met a lot of familiar faces, other than the group I've met.
Saw Colin in FC1 buying food, then Casper Tay with his friend eating.
What a small world it turned to when my class shifted to T5!

But I look forward to seeing some nice people though (;

Oh yea, saw this fan page that Grace joined, Alex Mckee.
Out of curiosity, clicked and check who's that out, nice name lol!
Then, saw his photos........
INSTANTLY GO GOOGLE ABOUT HIM!

ALEX MCKEE IS TOTALLY HOT! :D

OMGzxzxzxz *drools*
From what I know so far, he's a model. He has really great collection(s) of portfolio photos.
HE'S GOD DAMN HOT! CUTE! PRETTY! *goes crazy*
I can see my eyes turning into heart shapes, seriously.

Ahhh *A* Love at first sight, he's perfect! LOL.
Seriously, why would such pretty person ever exist?!

But what I'm sad about is that he's taken!
& THE FACT THAT HE'S A GAY )))))))): *depressed*
He's got a boyfriend, ok-ok-looking to me, compared to him (;

I want a boyfriend like him! (Like I'll ever will, chey. But dreaming also shuang)
Everyday will face a eye-candy, sweet 'till my eyes diabetics, but I don't mind *drools*.
HAHAHA!

I'm feel very helpless 'cause I can't do anything to aid you in your situation.
Cheer up! I really hope things will get better for you, stay strong!
I'll be your listening ears, I'll provide you tissues when you cry.

I WANT ME BACK.

2009-10-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

A constant reminder, a few images, a scene that was missed badly.
Why? Get a hold of yourself, girl.

Focus in school, focus!
Hug Tongtong, tell yourself you'll be fine! Tongtong is always there for you.

You're strong, you'll be alright even things ended like that ):
Stop thinking about those things you were told, it's meaningless now...

Flames to dust, lovers to friend. Why do all good things come to end?
But I still cried...

How's school?

2009-10-20T19:01:00.001+08:00

Yosh, I have a bit of mood to write now so I shall.
It's the second day of Semester 2, I'd say it isn't that bad so far.

We had a long lecture in the morning yesterday, mood was horrible.
But fortunately I still know a handful of people in the new class.
Duo duo zhi jiao ah!

Tomorrow's HTI (History and Theory Of Ideas) lesson! :D
I hope it would be interestingly-understandable like the last sem?
Although the majority thinks that HTI is nonsense and nuisance, LOL.

My body isn't catching up very well with the pace I've got to go now though.
Easily getting sleepy in class as I ain't sleeping well at night.
In addition, too much walking in school with a heavy bag is; torture.

I am the great designer wanna be!
JIA YOU! (;

Eve of Sem 2 Year 1.

2009-10-18T22:37:00.001+08:00

WHOOOOOAH!

I wished school don't have to start tomorrow morning.

BLOODY HELL, every Monday will be 8 - 6pm!
With only ONE HOUR of break! -.- How torturous!
Eh eh not bad aiseh, I nan de have the mood to complain y'know.
LOL.

1) Kar nee de nar - The unearthly time.
8am in the morning at block T5, have to walk damn far everyday to school.
Oh gosh, wtf.

2) MY progress of work.
I don't want same things happening like in Sem 1, OMGzxzxzxz.
No, not COPE well, is really DO well.
1st Sem was shit, only got 3.083 for GPA wtf?! -.-

3) My new class!
Fortunately I know Hijjah and Sophia already.
I pray for the best, lol. I seriously don't wanna handle difficult situations.

Human-and-human relationships = difficult.
Human-and-bitches relationships = eeeyer no time to handle chickens zzz.
Human-and-bastards relationships = fuck off.
Human-and-retarded relationships = I might laugh at you IF I have the time LOL.

Lastly, ALL THE BEST PEOPLE! (;

***********************

Irene's back from Hong Kong, welcome back :D
Sheng's also back from Cruising, welcome back :D
They both had fun I heard, it's good to hear that.

Irene also bought a present for me! Teeheehee!

Now I got a mega-extra-large sized Tongtong, a mini one, and a medium size one :D
This is the medium size one, hehe. Thanks Irene!

A female though, but it's ok! Can be my Tongtong's little sister!
But sadly, I'm still thinking a name for her :///

Met Hijjah and Grace later on as well, at Bugis.
Played at the Iluma's arcade, it was crazy I'd say lol.

Hope we can really have fun together again very soon!
Since we'll be different classes already ):

And then....

I was doing some stuffs and came across some photos, taken by Irene.
Using her DSLR camera.

O-M-G.

That was Irene's shade, lol.

Gigi and Bibi!!!!!!
Mummy miss you Bibi! Awww! Lol.

I remember they came over to my house to chiong some assignments.
So after we finished I guess, we started to ki-siao and took many photos.

Time freezes, and photographs really captures the moments.
I still remember how I was and felt when all these photographs were taken.

[/edit]

Warui warui! (Sorry, sorry!)
I forgot something, my own photograph!
I realised I haven't been taking myself, now wanna show off a bit :P
HAHA.

Ok off to settle some school things, and hope I can turn in SOON!
Insomnia lately, tsk, sigh.

Move on. How?

2009-10-18T00:49:00.001+08:00

No, don't abandon me anymore...
I'm desperately in need of better situations to come true for me.

Feeling ... ...

2009-10-16T01:04:00.001+08:00

Ahhh it's 12.32am, I can't sleep. I'm feeling alone and self-centered too.
Warning: don't read this if you don't feel like reading a ranting post.

Why alone?

'Cause people who usually talks to me online these few days, aren't online now.
I'm not receiving any sms.
I'm bored, nothing entertaining to do.
I can't sleep, my mind is filled with things I wanna get rid of.
It's late at night now.

I admit I'm a girl motivated by attention and encourages, that's how I do things.
So I'll die of depression if someone whom I care, said cruel things, treating me badly or hates/avoids me.
BAH, but that doesn't mean you all can do this to me now that you know my weakness uh!
Kill you!

So when I'm alone, I'll start to feel depressed, emo and stuff.
Which is one reason I don't like myself, 'cause I'm weak in that sense.

Why feeling self-centered?

I wanna request lots of things from myself and from the people around me.
I want to meet great people in the future.
I want to... I want to... I want to... too.

Shall not say much about it here, for me to know and you all to find out.
People tends to judge when too much honesty is being input into what they voice out.

I know what I want, I know what I need and lack.
& I can understand why I feel this way.
I got enlightened by myself, my brain.
But my heart is still stuck at a certain stage whereby I feel insecure, unstable.

Well screw this shit, 'cause I know I'll be better in time, no matter how depressed I get halfway whenever I think back about those sad stuff.
I'll be finished with crying and move on, even though the crying process is damn painful.

But let's not assume I'm alright already la ok, 'cause I'm motivating myself now (; Lol.

Ok it's another long ranting post.
But it's for me to read and motivate myself anyway, HA!
My blog what.
p/s: Why meet great people in the future? 'Cause inside those great people will have people that I want, wanting me.

This is irrelevant; but how shall I spend my last weekend of holiday? And with who?
Monday's school's starting, the timetable sucks and so is school.
AH, FUCKING SAD, I'm serious.

Movie.

2009-10-15T21:46:00.001+08:00

Haaaa went out with Eric, Alvin and Weican today (:
Very long since we all went out.
Too bad Jolin isn't around, kind of sad.

Watched this movie - Haeundae, The Deadly Tsunami.

Omgzxzxzx scary! Scary as in seeing how helpless and weak human are.
The Tsunami was humongous, I think at least 100 meters high, very wtf.
The story's quite nice uh, very touching too.

Sad. So must cherish your loved ones!
It's fortunate that Singapore doesn't have such things happening, but things are hard to say in the future.

Anyway we slacked around for some time and headed home.
I wonder when will be our next outing, lol. Next holiday perhaps.

Ma Dong Shi Zhang (Mafia Boss) kept claiming I'm a Xiao Tai Mei -.- LOL.
Eric and I still can't stop laughing together :D
Alvin is still as fair as ever, roar! Lol.

Can't stand my sillyness.

2009-10-15T00:02:00.001+08:00

Anybody knows when exactly is this year's Fireworks Festival???

I really looking forward to it.
Last year's one was pretty nicely done, I enjoyed it ((:
And I thought that perhaps watching fireworks could help cheer me up.

So please anybody knows any info, tell me! Thanks a million!
I really wanna watch the fireworks with my cliques...

Urgh, I can't stand my sillyness you know!?
I can't screw myself up because of that, can I?! I wished I could too!
Zzzzzzz........
To believe that I actually... Wo shi bai chi, bai chi bai chi bai chi DA BAI CHI!

Zzzzz.

2009-10-13T23:04:00.001+08:00

I was browsing through the school's website about GEMs.
It's sort of like a sub-course for us, compulsory to take.

We have to choose, and it's so hard to choose from the long boring list!!!
*super big headache*
Fuck this -.- Zzzz.
Especially when I'm not interested in majority of the courses.

Headache now.
& the thought of school reopening next week added more pain in the head.

Another longggggggg semester of no-life-chionging )))))):

How much more depressing can my life get?
Got phobia of school D:

Feeling extremely sian 1/2 and down now.
The accumulative kind of depression.

Waaa fuck, I feel like crying again ))))):
Why am I feeling so bloody screwed now?!?!?!

DAMN IT.

I want to fall sick now and sleep my way through.
At least I'm deceiving myself under the comfort of hugging Tongtong.
I seriously wanted to have fever ever since last month!
T.T!!!!

Adapting new.

2009-10-12T19:48:00.001+08:00

I had a series of fun events with my two cliques over the last weekend.
Even though I had to bear another harsh injury.

Shall post photos and videos soon when I feel like.
I don't feel like exposing much now.

Happy Birthday in advanced to Grace (;

and

Happy Birthday to Erlin ((:

We all had fun celebrating, I hope I did well in my part.
Cake, celebration, surprises, everything was quite right.

I dyed my hair, dark brown with a little red.
Chio-ness.
This will help push me a little in a new start, since it's time for a change.

I still need a little time, I'm trying really hard, really really.
I'm weak but I'm gettin' better each time I fall.
I've lost the ability to trust 'that', but life still goes on.
Had enough of crying over little things, I detest that 'me'.

Screw it.

2009-10-05T03:44:00.001+08:00

At 9.51pm, I switched off my baby and go to bed.
I'm FINALLY feeling sleepy during a right time.
I can fucking see obvious and huge eye bags.

At 12.49am, Irene Tan called me! Zzz.
I was reluctant to pick up that call 'cause I finally fell asleep.
But I still picked up 'cause DCMD students are going off
to Kuantan for school trip, she and Grace won't be around
until 8th Oct!

Talked for 2 mintues and call ended.
I tried to sleep again.

Up until 3.21am, I kept trying to sleep.
I checked my phone for SMS but nothing came in.
I came online too.

At 3.30am, I'M FUCKING BLOGGING HERE BECAUSE I CAN'T SLEEP ALREADY.
BECAUSE I'M SO SCREWED AND CAN'T FUCKING STOP THINKING ABOUT THINGS.
WHY??? KAR NEE DE NAR.

My tiny little brain, has all the images and memories flashing back.
ALL THE PROMISES THAT YOU TOLD ME.

You're the one coming to me, helping me to get through the pain I've suffered previously.
You're the one promising me here and there.
Those are the reasons why I've got you.

You said you will make it last, but I don't know what are you thinking right now.

I'm feel so screwed now that I can't cry (:
& I used to be able to rely on you, sheng, erlin and many more friends for help the other time.
But this time, I feel I'm facing this alone.

Tweety loves me, right?? Please say yes, you do.

2009-10-04T01:25:00.001+08:00

Lot of things are happening and coming up lately!
I hope my mentality can handle well and smoothly.

Shit happens but this strong girl will make things right again!
I'll hang on, try to be as cheerful as I always was :D

I don't want to admit that I lost to some minor details that
I've sensed and therefore broke down in tears every night.
(Ok I just did, but I'll try to change!)

It's the experiences that I've gained that made me, me!

*waaaaa I sound so old lol*

Someone's turning another year older soon aye?
Right my darling sister?
Nah I'd prefer calling you my dearest friend (:

I wonder what surprise shall I have for you this time?
I'll try my best, gambatte for you (;

I love the Tweety ((: Thank you.
My bunch of softies and getting along well together, with me too.
The least is that you didn't totally forget 'bout me
while you're away ^^

I miss the old sweet times, I wonder how you could manage
before but why not now? I know you can!
I want you to show it in your actions, like you used to.

I don't want your apologies, I want you to dote more on me.
I want us back like how we were before (:

Again

2009-10-01T23:49:00.001+08:00

I thought all the crying will end soon.
But I was wrong.

I expected more from you, so much so much more.
But high expectations usually end up hurting myself.

I don't want to give up yet.
So please convince me that you're worthy of my love.

I can't sleep. Insomnia, again. Just like during March & April.

Hmmm.

2009-10-01T18:53:00.001+08:00

I heard my uncle and grandmother's going back tomorrow.
And I was aiming for a iPod nano or iTouch :x

HAHAHA! K nvm I'll get it myself by my own means (:
Don't need to rely on them.
Anyway I've never relied on them much in the first place.

My uncle finished 10 bottles of Heineken in 2 days -.-
Not counting cans ones!
& he smokes, I didn't bother to count, though I'm guessing at least about 4 packets in merely two days.

AHHHH MY ITOUCH!!!!
I too paiseh, don't dare to ask for it.
My sis got new phone, my bro got psp, I got nothing.
Blame myself don't dare to ask LOL.

*cool down*

AHHHHHHH ITOUCH~ IPOD~ AHHHH!!!!!!!!!
*fly away*

LOL.

Some fine conversation.

2009-09-30T19:29:00.001+08:00

Received a missed call with a unknown number.
I called back and heard a familiar voice, but still guessing who's behind the phone there talking.

He said he was Shariff, my Secondary 4 classmate.
Lol we chatted for a min, I told him he sounded like Haris.
Who's also a Sec4 classmate of mine.

He laughed, we chatted for another min.
He admitted that he's Haris, lol.

I miss my classmates, aww.
When's our next gathering people?

He asked me, how's you and your boyfriend?
I wondered how the heck he came to know...
He said: "Eh c'mon Jinghui, I'm Haris you know! Haha!"

LOL we both laughed.

Sigh.

2009-09-29T02:42:00.001+08:00

It was a prank played on me today, by my eyes.
I thought... I thought... I thought... I saw somebody.
In those particular minutes, my body wouldn't move an inch!
I wanna run away, but I can't.

When I'm back to my senses I realised I'm just seeing things, lol.
Fortunately.

Cannot, still feels a little awkward and pain when I'm reminded of it.
So you there, help me ok? Heal me ):
You've got to help me forget the past 'cause you're my present now.
We'll pull through, but you'll have to make the move soon (:

You get what I mean right?
I've already given you a starting option, haha.

I seriously hate this song now, When I'm Gone - Simple Plan.
Freakin' damn it.
"You'll miss me when I'm gone, oh~ oh~ oh~" -.- Wtf.
Really a idiotic song.

AHHHHHH THERE'S A STORM OUT THERE AS I'M TYPING HERE.
I can hear the sounds of the strong wind!!!
I can hear the pounding of the downfall!!!

The scariest and unwanted thing is, THUNDER!!!!!!
Scary~ T^T

Oh ya, storm... Storm... Storm... Hmmm...
*slow*

OMG THERE'S A STORM OUT THERE WTF!
Wonder if they're doing well, those out there.
If you know who I'm referring to...

I'll settle scores with you when you two are back safely, lol.
Just enjoy and be safe for now.

In the end, I'm soft-hearted, no matter how I angry & upset I was before.
Lol (:

Rich or what?

2009-09-27T16:35:00.000+08:00

As you all know, my grandmother and Uncle came from Malaysia
to visit us.

I thought it's going to be boring or busy as I would automatically
need to host them around again or something.

Since my parents would be busy working, my siblings are too
small and I'll have to do the hosting.

But surprisingly I didn't do much, except for rottin' around
like I usually do at home when I'm not occupied with any work
or any dates.

Another interesting yet hard-to-believe-fact is that my uncle is
that rich? -.- I didn't know.

YESTERDAY

He noticed our TV was a little faulty, he steadily asked my mother
to bring him and my grandmother out to COURTS & he bought
a new one.

I heard it's likely a plasma TV.
He even asked my mum if that brand is ok? Nice?

THIS MORNING

He heard from don't-know-who in my house that I own a digital cam.
He asked me if he could take a look, but sadly my cam was spoiled
and the whereabouts of my cam is forgotten now haha.

This morning he say he wanna buy a new camera for me, OMGzxzx?
Though it's really nice of him, but I rejected it.
I know there's going to be good use of it but I don't wanna owe
people too much aye.

But nevertheless my parents, him and my siblings still went out together.
To do what y'know?

He bought a PSP + PSP cover + games = $375
for my idiotic brother!!! He's primary 3 by the way -.-

NEXT, he got my sister a new phone cause she knows her is sot sot one
also.
Sony Ericsson W910i - Brown colour.

WTF, flabbergasted.
I wonder what shocking thing is he going to do next.

I'll wait la huh, I'll wait.
Although I'm tough, but I'm at my limits.
Even properly-trained dogs knows how to bite if they don't get
their well-deserved treats. Where's mine?

[/edit]
I just changed my mind.
I'm angry.
No wait, shall not make a fuss about it, since I don't feel like caring.

If opportunity doesn't knock, then build a door.

2009-09-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

I looked through my previous smses.
It's pretty easy to tell what's missing.

I saw situations that I was very envious today, ha!
Which I know I supposedly shouldn't be...

I'll wait, but don't keep me waiting for too long.
You don't know the pain I'm going through again and again.

Make me have faith again, make me!
You'll really have to try harder, I miss the old times.

Thanks Irene (:
Thanks Hijjah (:
At least both of you made my day, still able to pass.
& really love the 'Cherry' haha!

I'm used to be told; Tomorrow is going to be a better day!
I want to believe in that again, so make me! Yes, make me!
If opportunity doesn't knock, then build a door.

Survey? Truth?

2009-09-25T23:15:00.004+08:00

I did a interesting quiz given by Erlin.
It's in chinese, but don't worry I'll try my umpteen best later to translate
for you all to read (:

Survey about:
你最會演好人生中哪個角色??

Question is:
有一位美女走在街上，突然驚叫了一聲，你認為是：

A. 高跟鞋跟斷了，扭到了腳

B. 發現自己踩到了狗屎

C. 一隻老鼠從眼前竄出

D. 看見地上有一大疊鈔票

My chosen option & answer:
A. 高跟鞋跟斷了，扭到了腳

完美情人。

你很有「壞」男人或「壞」女人的潛質，

熱情、激情、柔情樣樣不缺，只要對對方稍稍研究，

便能抓住他的心，做出絕佳表現，能讓伴侶愛得欲罷不能。

雖然不乏刻意的成份，但為了經營好愛情，

你所表現的一切都會那麼自然，那麼充滿誘惑。

即便踏入婚姻，你也能用自己的智慧為感情生活長久的注入新鮮感。

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

ENGLISH!

Survey about:
What role do you play best in your life?
(meaning for example, you're best being a girlfriend, friend, family, student, etc)

Question is:
What is your first impression, after hearing a loud scream from a hot chic
walking down the street?

A - She hurt her ankle, due to her broken heels.

B - She found out herself stepping on dog's poop.

C - A rat suddenly appeared, running out from nowhere.

D - A huge stack of cash found on the floor.

My chosen option & answer:
A - She hurt her ankle, due to her broken heels.

Perfect Lover.

You have the potential being 'The Bad Girl' or 'The Bad Boy'.
You don't lack both sides, of how you show your feeling;
being gentle & passionate.

As long as you conduct a little observation on 'The One',
you can grab hold of his/her heart, presenting the best you can
to your lover and making him/her cannot NOT love you.

The way you work your way through, although contains tactics that
are done on purpose, but you did it in a way so naturally that
it seduces, but all for the sake of running the relationship well.

Therefore, even when comes to marriage, you can make use of your
wisdom on how to run it well to keep the marriage lasting and fresh.

LOL! I find it quite true to a certain extent.
Quite big extent actually :P
If you know me well enough... That is... -.-

I tried to translate to the closest meaning I could.
Hope there's no major mistakes, if there's any please tell me.
& if you're interested in knowing other answers too, just tag me!

I'll update asap and translate them for you (:

I'm still angry, but more like upset ):
I'm always unknowingly trying so hard.
Just take the initiative, but if you're not going to, then forget it.
I'll leave it as it is, and see how things will go from now on...

Shit happens, god damn it.

2009-09-24T22:27:00.001+08:00

FUCK!
I've got no where else to vet my anger on so pardon la huh.

Here's the story:

My mother asked me to fold the clothes today.
I did it in the morning.
I even put them nicely back into each and everybody's clothes into their wardrobe.
People makes mistakes right? Nobody's perfect.

I might have put my sister's clothes in the wrong section of
HER clothes in HER way of putting it, I don't know.
She mumbled something wrong with putting the clothes today
and later asking my mother who put the clothes today one?

Of course I said I did la.
Because I was thinking WTH, you didn't do anything don't complain too much.
So I told both of them, I fold the clothes and I even put the clothes back.

KAR NEE DE NAR.

I merely said that leh, my mother flare don't know for fuck?! -.-
Childish lame shit.
Then down there kpkb say don't need fold la next time everything I do I do!

ZZZZZZZZ what's wrong with admitting what you've done?
I even did more than I was asked to.
HAO XIN MEI HAO BAO.

After finished kpkb-ing still not enough.
She came into the room, swiping the floor and throw whatever objects
all over the room that are in her way while swiping.

& I mean whatever objects! WTF IS HER PROBLEM? CB.
She throw the dustbin even!? THEN FUCKING SWIPE THE FLOOR FOR WHAT?

God damn it, bullshit la -.-

Not good mood then anyhow throw things here and there. Kar nee nar.
If it isn't because she's my mother, I would have flared big time.
What else can I do la? Besides enduring her idiotic illogical version of flaring.

FUCK.
Already had a suay and bad day.
SHIT HAPPENED and it happened 3 times!

Tomorrow my grandmother from M'sia is coming.
WHAT NICE TIMING! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Now from being depressed evolves into being FURIOUS! ZZZZZZ.